How Love Fixed Me(Sequel to how love found me)(Niall Horan fan-fic)

chapter 14:i still love you

> Chapter 14: I still love you

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> Carson's POV:

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> It had been a week since the kiss and the nerf war. Niall and I hadn't talked since the kiss, besides him waking me up that one day. I couldn't even look at him. I tried avoiding him at all costs. I couldn't fall for him again. I couldn't. Whenever he would come by me I would make some excuse to move. The dream just made everything more confusing. My subconscious really does want Niall but I can't. Things are so complicated. I still don't know what I'd do.

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> But he also wasn't making and moves to talk to me about the kiss. So since hes not making a move either I'm sticking to my story that it was a heat of the moment mistake. One that we were never going to talk about again. Maybe thats the better choice. Not talking about it. It would probably weird out the little friendship we do..have.

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> They day after the nerf war the tour bus the boys were waiting for finally came. I guess it was broken down until now. I hadn't even noticed but I had never been on tour before. This was all new to me. We had all just been in some giant van like we usually took before. It wasn't different than a few years ago. We always rode around in a huge van to fit us all.

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> Once the boys came back from the little break we were given, they were busy all the time. They were either at a sound check or a concert or interview or CD signing. Always busy. They almost never had a spare moment. I always just trailed behind them making sure their hair and make-up was fine. I was basically in the background. Never really standing out. That was fine by me.

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> The fans started asking if things were happening with Niall and I again. The boys just all denied it. As I did when I was asked. I was only asked a few times. I really doubt anything is going to start up again.

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> When I was left alone while the boys were off doing something, I actually had Jerry and Sarah with me. They talked to me a lot. I missed them too. It was nice to finally see them again. They helped me a lot with taking over the boys hair and things.

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> Kelly was still around all the time. If Jerry and Sarah were busy she would have me running around doing things for her like I was her slave. I just did what she said. Zayn told me to just stand up to her, but that would only make her hate me more. She hovered like a helicopter, constantly protecting the boys. Which in a way is good but she never left them alone. Even they found her annoying.

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> She was seriously starting to get on my nerves. She would make tiny little comments about my appearance and things I was doing. Saying my outfit was ugly or that I laughed funny. I just ignored her and tried not to make a big deal out of it. I just wanted to get through this tour. I really just wanted to go home. But today she was driving me especially crazy. She had me running through the venue getting the boys things, or getting her food, or coffee or doing anything to keep me from being able to watch the show. I just wasn't in the mood for anything. Everyone was just making me mad. I had no clue why but I just wanted to punch everyone in the face. Especially Kelly. It was taking everything in me not to blow up at her.

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> "Thanks Kelly." Liam said to her. The boys bounded of the stage and started wiping their faces with towels trying to ride them from the sweat.