~Black Queen~ Black Clover x FEM POC Reader

Ch.18- Come With Me

Drew's Pov.

As y/n locked herself in her room, I knew something was wrong. 

Thank God I'm a small sprit so I was able to slightly change my form and crawled under the door in to her room. She layed there, on her bed, sobbing. I flew up to her.

Drew: "N/n? What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
Y/n: " D-drew? F-Finral.... *sob* He broke up with me..."

She started crying more than before, like if I shouldn't ask. Y/n means the world to me, so I took it into my own hands to get the people who I trust as her best friends. 

I opened the door and flew out. I met face to face with Nozel as he was just coming back inside the hide out.

Nozel: " Drew, whats up?"
Drew: " Is it ok if I bring some people over?"
Nozel: "Yea sure. But who?"
drew: "-----"

I left the hide out and flew to my destination: The Black Bulls hideout. I used up some mana and got there in a faster past.

When I arrived, I flung the door open and saw everyone there.

Drew:" Yami, I'm taking Asta."
Yami: " What do you need him for pipsquke?"
Drew: " Its important and don't call me pipsquke."
Asta: " What is it Drew?"
Drew: "Its y/n get on. We leave right now."

I made a bird like Y/n's and let Asta jump on. Next, we went to the golden dawn's hideout. Too damn shiny. We went in and Asta started fanboying because of the way the hideout was built.

Drew: " YUNO"
Yuno: " What do you need drew?"
Asta: "Its y/n"
Yuno: " On it."

Yuno got his broom and we hurried to the hideout.

Mentions of self harm.

Y/n pov

As Drew left, I started getting historical, missing Finral's touch, his sent, his voice. 

Looking at the blank walls of my bedroom, feeling more empty than the day my mother died. I got up from my bed and walked into my bathroom.

I went into my draw that I have all my importants and pulled out a razer. Sinking down to the floor, still crying, I began to cut open the skin on my wrist. 

I didn't feel the pain, my body didn't respond to physical pain anymore.

Blood pored out of my open and deep wound as my vision became spotty. I sobbed and sobbed as I realized what I had just done myself.

I hadn't known what I was doing, but it might be the death of me. In that very moment, I wanted to leave the world. Be deleted from everyone's memories. I didn't wish to live. 

All my past memories of being mentally and physically abused crushed me in that very spot.

I couldn't take it anymore. I got off the floor after cutting my thighs multiple times, and reached into my med kit for painkillers.

Thinking back to when I almost decided to end it all before leaving the place where I once called home.

I started screaming and gripping onto the tub infrount of me. Finral was the only person I put all my trust in, and he didn't even think about it. 

I never told him about my past because I was too scared. I hate being judged.

I pored about seventeen pills into the palm of my shaking and bleeding hands. Slowly lifting them to my mouth, I looked at my reflection, blood slushed on my check and tears rolling down my checks.

I looked back to the pills in my hand, about to let them roll into my mouth to swallow them down, when a hand grabed mine. My eyes opened as I again realized what I was about to do.

Drew: " Y.... y/n? What were you going to do?"
y/n: "D-drew? No... Was I?"
Yuno: " Y/n. Breath.. It's ok."
Asta: " Y/n why are you bleeding?"

I looked at my hands, which were empty because Drew removed the pills, to see a bloody mess. I had done this to myself again.

Y/n: " I'm sorry.."

I sank into Drew's arms. I don't know how but I was able to rest my head in his chest. I cried and kept apologizing to them.

Drew's POV

We got into y/n's bedroom to see the bathroom door open. We walked in and saw blood and her hand inching up to her mouth. Her {h/t} hair was out wildly and her clothes were bloody. My first instant was to alter my mana to make myself bigger. I grabbed her arm before she could empty the pills into her mouth.

Drew: " Y.... y/n? What are you doing?"
y/n: " D-drew...?"

I heard the fear, pain and saddens in her voice. Her {e/c} eyes which were always sparkling in the light, was dark with the fear that stepped in. Her plump lips curled up as she broke down in tears gripping my shirt.

Y/n: " I'm sorry.."

She said before weeping and passing out on me.

Yuno: " Did she pass out?"
Drew: " Yea. Lets get her cleaned up.

y/n pov.

3 hours later

I wake up to the warmth of a chest and a arm on my back and on my shoulder. I leaned away from the chest and met with crimson red eyes. 

A strong jawline stood out and long white hair bough up into a cute messy bun. I sat up on his lap and looked at him again.

Drew: " Feeling better?"
Y/n: " D-drew?!!??!"
Drew: "Your one and only flying buddy."
Yuno: "Y/n, are you ok now ?"
Y/n: " Yuno? Then that mea-"
Asta: " Y/n what were you thinking?"
Y/n: " I wasn't...."

That was true. I wasn't thinking about how my actions could affect the people who cared about me. 

Looking at all of my friends I started crying again, seeing the concern in their eyes waiting for me to explain myself.

Drew: " Come on pudding, tell us whats wrong."
y/n: " I- *sob* I dont feel like carrying on. My past is so fucked I don't know what to do anymore. I don't wanna be here Drew. I don't..."
Asta: "Y/n, never give up. Do like me. I don't have magic but I still kept going. I want that for you too. Keep going. And never give up."
Yuno: " Wanna talk about it, y/n?"

I look at the bed sheet below me and sighed.

Y/n: " Yea... I guess I can trust you guys."