Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Bellamy's P.O.V

*Couple weeks later*

Clarke and I have been living in our own house for a couple weeks now and I haven't been given a new letter but that's okay because she can take her time with when she wants to give them to me. I woke up early and Clarke was still asleep and she looked so peaceful and beautiful that sometimes I am dreaming that she chose me after all these years. I get up eventually and make her some food because I know she is going to be hungry and I know that if she doesn't eat and get her coffee she will become this cute little monster that I love. I make the coffee and some waffles with a cheese omelet for her and then as I am putting it all together I feel small arms wrap around me.

"Good morning princess, how'd you sleep?" I ask her as I hand Clarke her coffee.

"Good, but I woke up without you" she says as she takes the coffee from my hands.

"Well who else is going to feed you"

"That's true, thank you...also your next letter is on the coffee table"

She walks away to go eat and I go over and take the letter, now what is this one about...when I picked it up there were 2 letters. "You gave me 2?" I asked her.

"Yeah" she says with a smile.

I guess here we go...

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Letter 4

Dear Bellamy,

Well where do I start...how about my mother called today, ya I didn't want to answer but Murphy made me. I guess her and Kane are getting a divorce and I don't know why I care but maybe it's because he was always nice to me but he never did anything to stop the abuse, and he's the police chief for god's sake or was. And of course she had to say that I am doing everything wrong in life even though she had no idea what my life was, she never has and she never will...she then goes on to talk to Murphy for an hour and a half. Today reminded me of you because I know what you would have said to her, you would have yelled saying that she was wrong then tell her to go fuck herself and then hung up and I would have kissed you for it. I miss you so much and life was so much better and easier when I could talk to you every day, yeah I act like a bitch every time O is on the phone with you but in reality all I want is you, all I want is for it to go back to the way it was.

Did I hurt you that bad where you just didn't or couldn't talk to me anymore? Did I hurt you that badly that not only did I lose one of the closest friends of mine but also the man I fell in love with? I'm sorry I said no and I'm sorry that I couldn't be with you but in my last letter I explained why, and you don't know how much I wanted to say yes and how much I wanted to be with you but did you really want me to say yes to something I wasn't ready for. I fell for you because you showed me something that I never thought I could have...happiness and love.

I remember I couldn't sleep one night and you asked me why I couldn't and I told you that I had a dream that I was scared was going to come true but I kinda wanted it to. Well, do you want to know what that dream was? Well to cut the story short we were together together and it was a sex dream between you and me, I wanted it to happen but I was scared when I woke up.

Anyway I miss you and I love you ❤

Love Clarke

Reading this one made me smile and I look over at Clarke and she is reading a book and god I love this woman and reading these letters are making me want to marry her more and more by the day but I know she will not be ready for a while.

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Letter 5

Dear Bellamy,

I want a baby...I want your baby Bellamy and I know I can't have your baby, and it kills me that I can't because I know you would be the best dad. You raised O for like 3 years when your mother was in the hospital and you did an amazing job, so I knew from the start that you would and will be a really good father one day. I'm jealous of the woman who gets to have your babies because she is the luckiest woman alive to get to have you and your little spawns, I want you and your children but I know that won't ever happen because...things just didn't work. I met a guy and he is so sweet, his name is Joe and yeah I dated one other guy but when he found out he would have been the first one that I have been with since high school he left. Joe understands that I wasn't ready to be in a relationship but he doesn't know the story of why I wasn't. He makes me smile but he's not you, no one can be you, you understand me like no one else and you understand me to the point where I think you are the only person in the world who does understand me that way. I want to be happy...I truly do but I don't know how to do that without you, you were the only one that could make me happy without over thinking and without a worry in the world. I miss you so much and yes I want your baby but I know that could only happen in my dreams, unless some miracle happens and we end up together and staying together, getting married, having a baby, I'm not afraid of it anymore, I'm not afraid of the future, that's all I want is a future with you. I love you and I miss you ❤

Love Clarke

She wants my babies...she wasn't afraid like she was of the future, and it was a miracle that we ended up together, I love her so much. She was still reading and I got up and went over to her and I put my arms around her shoulders, she put her book down and grabbed my arms with her hands. "So you finished reading," she says.

"You want my babies?" I ask her.

"I do, one day, and me a Joe were friends for about 2 years before he asked me out, but he never compared to you"

"In the 4th letter you asked if I was hurt so badly that I couldn't talk to you, I was hurt but no...I stepped back and gave you space and when you didn't reach out I thought you didn't want anything to do with me"

"I'm sorry, but you just stopped talking to me and I was confused and I never ever meant to hurt you"

"I know and I never meant to hurt you either"

"I love you Bellamy Blake"

"I love you too Clarke Griffin, and you want my babies" I say with a smile on my face.

"One day yes" she says, she then grabs my face and kisses me softly on the lips.