Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Clarke's P.O.V

Me and Bellamy were talking about why we couldn't sleep, then it turned into why Octavia doesn't want us to get close. Don't get me wrong I love Octavia but I don't why she doesn't want me to get to know her brother, she says if I did then I would end up getting hurt. After she said that I couldn't sleep, she then started to kick me in her sleep so I went to the living room. 

Bellamy told me that what he was thinking that wouldn't let him sleep was something O would kill him for...my question is what was he thinking...because what was running through my head would make O kill me as well. I was thinking about Bellamy...I don't know why, but ever since he came to me to make sure I was okay, and when he took me to his 'hiding spot' I've felt a connection to him. I can't explain it but it was a feeling that I don't want to go away. I feel safe with him but I don't know him...all I know is that he is my best friend's brother. I can't fall for my best friend's brother...I can't...but...I think I already have.

"Well, everyone I've known has either left or completely stopped talking to me and umm...I was just think why, I was also thinking of something Octavia would kill me for, she just hates the idea of me getting close to you, she keeps saying that you would end up hurting me but I don't see why she would think that of her own brother" I say.

"Yeah, it's because I'm known as a player and she would actually kill me to protect you and she won't tell me why" he says.

"I know why"

"Then why?"

"I've been hurt a lot in my life and when we became friends she said she would never let anything hurt again...she told me about you and I knew I wanted to meet you but she said it was a bad idea. She said it's not about you it's about you being a player, she loves you a lot and if it was different then she love us to get to know each other, but sadly it's not, what's going on between your family and Echo's" 

"Before my dad left he made a deal with Echo's family and we've been paying for it ever since, my father is not a good person and my mom raised me to be good and not be like my father, and I've tried to live by that but I think I've failed my mom"

"You didn't fail your mom. You are a good person, and Echo's family are just awful people, she's hated me since we were young because I was in the galery when her mom was on mom operating table watching her...her mom died on that table and she's blamed me everyday for it. She does everything in her power to make my life a living hell, even though my mom left me and dad died on my birthday when I was 10" I tell him.

He looks at me and I can tell he feels bad but I don't want him to at all, I don't need pity or anyone feeling bad for me. His eyes were looking into mine and I couldn't help but smile and so did he. "I'm sorry, I guess we both are in pretty deep in Echo and her family" he says.

"Don't be sorry, and I guess we are," I tell him. He goes to the kitchen and brings back junk food, with his free hand he takes mine and leads me to his room. "What are you doing?" I asked him.

"We are going to watch movies and eat junk food until we both fall asleep, and you are not going to say no because I know you have nothing better to do" He says.

"Fine but I'm not going to like it"

"Whatever you say Princess"

*the next morning*

When I got up the next morning Bellamy wasn't in the room so I went to the living room. I was in the living room when I saw O and she didn't look happy. "Hey O, what's wrong?" I asked.

"Did you and Bell sleep together last night?" she asks.

"What?!? No, why would you think that"

"Because when I got up last night you weren't in bed and when I went in the living room you weren't in there, then I went to check Bell's room and there you were with watching a movie...si I need to know did you sleep with my brother"

"Octavia...I did not sleep with Bellamy, we both couldn't sleep last night and we got to talking, then he grabbed a whole bunch of junk food and led me to his bedroom, then we watched a movie and I fell asleep, that's all that happened" I tell her.

"Okay" she says and we eat breakfast. Bellamy came inside from the back yard and now I'm curious to what he was doing. "Morning Bell, what were you doing in the shed?" Octavia asked him.

"Finishing up some things, good morning Clarke" he says.

"Good morning...thanks for the talk last night," I told him.

"Well, thank you as well"

"Anytime"

"You too"

Octavia gave us a look that was an unhappy one, she still thinks that Bellamy and I slept together...don't get me wrong I don't mind the idea but the truth is that we didn't. O looks pissed, and I know it's not about Echo because her and her family were on the news this morning and they got arrested. I love O like a sister but she needs to calm down...Bellamy and I are only friends.

"Are you sure you guys didn't sleep together?" she asks. Here we go again.

"What if I did Octavia, what would you do about it?" Bellamy says...I can not believe he just said that. 

"So you did"

"No Octavia, we've been telling you since yesterday that we didn't, so stop asking" then he storms off.