Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Octavia's P.O.V

Okay so Bellamy and Clarke asked pretty much everyone if we wanted to go out with them tonight and I told them to all say they were busy or that they didn't want to...anyway I made up an excuse that Lincoln and I was spending the night together because they need time alone to find what they used to. I have always wanted them to be together but when they stopped hanging out and being close I kinda gave up on the thought of it ever happening.

I was hanging out with Lincoln and he wants to go on a romantic stroll in the pine woods so we go and we find the only oak tree and find that Bellamy fucking Blake is holding my bestfriend in his arms, I look at Lincoln and he has a smirk as wide as mine. Lincoln and Clarke have known each other for a long time and him and I have always hated her ex Joe so seeing this made me and him very happy.

"My plan worked" I say to him with a smile.

"You planned this?" he asks me, a little surprised. Is he really that surprised that I planned to get them alone all night.

"I planned for them to be alone all night together and it was just our luck that we got to see them like this"

"I love you, you have always tried to make Clarke happy and Murphy and I really want to thank you for that"

"No need, I want to make my brother and her happy and the only way that's going to happen is if they are together and Murph would kill me if he found out I was part of this, and I love you too" 

Just then I saw them just looking into each other's eyes and you could tell they are deeply in love with each other and I couldn't be happier about it. Clarke smiles like she hasn't done in years and I have a feeling there is a kiss about to happen and I know I should walk away but I can't, Echo doesn't deserve my brother. 

Clarke's P.O.V

Bellamy and I are just looking into each other's eyes and me knowing how I feel about him makes me want to kiss him but he is in love with someone else and I have no chance because I screwed it up when I did. I smile at him and then he does at me and all I want to do is jump his bones right here right now, I want him and only him, I love him so much and I know he doesn't feel the same for me anymore but I really wished he did.

Just then I was snapped out of my thoughts when I saw him start to lean in, by the time I thought to back away it was too late and our lips were connected and instead of pushing him away I kissed him back with just as much passion as he was giving me. We pull apart and I have no idea what to do.

"Clarke...I'm..." he starts to say.

"Bellamy, don't get me wrong I have wanted to do that since I saw you on my doorstep but what the hell...you have a girlfriend" I say to him.

"I know I have a girlfriend and I don't know...I just couldn't wait any longer"

"Wait for what?"

"When you opened your door 2 weeks ago everything hit me all at once"

"What hit you"

"When I saw you I realized that all the feelings I had for you never went away, I tried burying them but it never worked and I tried moving on but now I can see what my mom meant when she said I didn't belong with Echo" he says while looking right into my eyes.

"Bellamy...you know I have felt something for you ever since we met" he nods "but bell you are with someone else and yeah I don't like her but she has feelings too and I can't do what happened to me with someone else, I can't be the other woman" I say to him trying not to cry.

He justs nods and we sit there in silence until he asks "you wanna go"

"I'll take a cab go ahead without me"

He says nothing and leaves...I can't believe he still feels the same for me and I for him. What are we going to do, I love him so much but I just got out of a relationship and he is in one...I don't know what I'm going to do. I get up and start walking toward the sidewalk when I notice that Bellamy didn't leave at all, he was waiting for when I was ready so he knows I'm okay...that's one reason why I love him, he does things even when he doesn't have to and I have a feeling that I missed my chance with him and whomever he marries is a very lucky woman.

He sees me, I get in and we go back to my apartment where Murphy, O, Linc, and Bell's mom are and when we walked in the door they all looked at us and all I did was go to my room and wait for O to come and beg me to tell her what happened even tho I saw her spying on us earlier.

Hopefully things will be better soon.