Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Clarke's P.O.V *a week later*

It's a day before graduation and Aurora and Bellamy are still here, they are leaving tomorrow and part of me can't wait for Bellamy to leave but another part of me doesn't want him to leave at all, the only reason I want him to leave is because it's awkward between us and I hate it. I want it to be like it used to be but I know that will take time, ever since he came to stay in the apartment we haven't talked much and it's really awkward, the only thing we do is look at each other.

I just want the old Bellamy back...my Bellamy.

I have really missed talking and hanging out with him but it's not like that, when we made up and talked out our issues I thought that maybe things would kinda go back to how they used to be but it's just like it was when we started to stop talking to each other.

Everyone is out of the apartment other than me and Bellamy, he hasn't left his room yet today but when he does it's gonna be weird. Octavia and Aurora are out getting O's graduation outfit and Murphy is somewhere because if he's not here he is either at home or somewhere else, just then Bellamy comes out and snaps me out of my thoughts.

"Hey" is all he says.

"Hey, what do you have planned for today?" I asked him.

"I don't know, why?"

"I was just wondering because I have nothing to do today but I want to get out of the house"

"Want to do something"

"Like what"

"I don't know, you have been here the longest what is fun to do around here"

"Everything that is fun is either only open at night or is not around at the moment"

"Okay what kind of nightly fun are you talking about?" he asks.

"Bars and Clubs mostly" I say to him.

"Where is O and my mom"

"Out shopping for O's graduation outfit"

"Why didn't you go?"

"Do you really have to ask that question, I'm just surprised that your mom went"

"My mom only went because she wants to spend as much time as she came with Octavia before we go home tomorrow"

We talk for about an hour then O and Aurora come home, Octavia doesn't do anything other then go to her room and pack some more because she is behind big time, Aurora on the other hand sits down next to Bell and joins in on our conversation. 

*that night*

I texted Murphy earlier to see if he wanted to come with Bellamy and I to the bar down the road, he said no. O wanted to go but then Lincoln texted and she went to hang out with him, so it's just me and Bell, I hope things go back to the way they used to be soon.

We take his truck because I don't have a car or truck, instead I have a motorbike and he said he wanted to drive so that's why and because I wouldn't let him drive my bike. He puts on country music and I just get lost in the music, he looks over at me and smiles at me like he used to and then it hit me hard...I'm still deeply in love with him...I knew before that I still loved him but now that I know that I'm still in love with him makes it even more stressful than it was before. 

*at the bar*

We arrived at the bar and we didn't talk the whole way here because I was dancing in the car and he would watch me every chance he could and every time I noticed it I would blush. We are at the bar sitting down and Bellamy all of the sudden just starts laughing and I'm all confused as to why and what he is thinking.