Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Bellamy's P.O.V

Last night I stayed up talking to Clarke for 2 and a half hours and I didn't end up going to bed until around 3:30am, me and her talked about her family and she told me about her sister and how Anya was Murphy's sister and how much everyone in the house except the adults hate her and everything like that. I woke up around 11:00am and started making food and about a half an hour later I saw Clarke wake up, she is so beautiful and talking to her made me happy but just being friends with her is killing me. 

She gets up and smiles then she disappears into O's bedroom, I want to be with her but there is no way I can, 12th grade is coming up because it's almost May and that is also Clarke's birthday month. I got her a bracelet with her name on it and I hope she likes it, it would mean that she has something I gave her which would make me really happy. 

She and Octavia come out of Octavia's room and all I can do is smile at Clarke because she is happy at the moment and that's a good thing. After Clarke's and I's talk last night, seeing her smile makes me happy for her and I always want to see that smile on her face and when it's not there then I want to be the one to hold her and tell her everything is going to be okay and to make her smile. She needs some happiness in her life and I wish I could give her some of that happiness but I know she is not ready for that and I'm willing to wait.

We all eat and now that Lincoln is here, Clarke and I are on our way to the hospital to see my mom and try to convince my mom to stay there until she is better and hopefully she will listen to me. "You ready to see my mom" I asked Clarke as I parked the car.

"Yeah, the last time I saw her was before she went to the hospital last year" she says with a smile.

"Okay. let's go" We went in and I took Clarke down to my mom's room and there was my mom sitting on the bed watching tv and hooked up to tubes and wires. "Here we are, you sure you want to come in" I ask her.

"Yeah, I would love to see and talk to her again" 

"Really, you sure"

"Yes, now come on, she's waiting"

"Okay" we walk in and my mom's face lights up with joy. "Hey mom"

"Hey my baby boy, and hello Clarke, I haven't seen you in forever" my mom says to her.

"Hey, yeah...how have you been" Clarke asks her.

"In bed with cancer, but other I'm okay, so Bellamy are you taking me home today"

"No mom, you need to stay here until you get better, I know I'm not 18 and I can't tell you what to do but if you come home you're just going to get worse" 

"Bell, I'm tired...I can't fight anymore, I want to come home and be your mom for as long as I can" she says.

"No mom, please fight you can beat this, they're trying a new drug that has had success on you next week, so please just keep fighting a little longer" I say trying not to break down. 

"Okay, O will for you and O...anyway Clarke are you finally dating my son"

"Um...no we're just friends, but someday he will find someone who will be the luckiest gal in the world" Clarke says to my mother...did I just hear that right.

"You're right or maybe he has found her," my mom says.

"What are you talking about mom?" I ask her.

"Nothing, can I talk to Clarke alone please"

"Umm, sure I guess" 

I left the room and all I could wonder is why she wanted me to leave so she could talk to Clarke, I hope she doesn't try to hook me and her up.