Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Clarke's P.O.V

Instead of answering me Bellamy pulls me closer to him and puts his lips on mine, for a moment I didn't kiss back but then I did and the feeling I got was the best thing in the world. he tilted his head to deepen the kiss and then he swipes his tongue across my bottom lip asking for entrance and I give it to him, the kiss lasts a few minutes then I pulled away.

"Bellamy..." I started to say.

"What?" he asks.

"I can't...I can't get hurt again, and I know you're going to say you won't hurt me but the truth is that you don't know if you are going to...please just don't ruin this friendship we have please"

"Why do you think I will hurt you"

"I don't think you will I just don't want to be hurt and if something happen and most likely it will because we are in high school I don't only lose a significant other I also lose a friend and I don't want that to happen"

"I understand where you are coming from but if you don't open up your heart again then how will you ever be happy with someone in the future"

"Someone once told me Love was weakness and I didn't listen to her and after she died I still thought that she was wrong and then I got hurt so I need you to understand that I am not ready to give my heart to anyone and I don't want to lose a friend" I say.

"Your aunt," he says.

"Yeah..."

"Okay" We sat there quietly, I didn't know what to say at this moment and I was scared to say anything so I waited until he said something, I looked at his face and I knew I hurt him but I didn't mean to. I just can't get hurt or lose a friend and I just hope he understands that. "Do you want me to take you home?" he asks me.

"What time is it?" I ask him in return.

He looks at his phone then says "15 till 2:00am" that means it's 1:45am.

"Yeah I should get home before Murphy gets even more pissed than he already is" I say before I realized what I said.

"Oh I forgot he was your brother"

"Yeah, now can you take me home?" I ask him.

"Yeah, of course come on"

Bellamy's P.O.V

After I dropped Clarke back at home, I went home myself but when I got home Octavia was awake and waiting to interrogate me. Don't get me wrong I love my sister but I hate it when she medals in my love life or sometimes my life in general, I tried to just walk straight to my room but she stopped me before I got there. "Where have you been Bellamy Blake!!" she yells.

"Out, now can I go?" I asked her.

"No, who were you with"

"How do you know I was with someone?"

"Because I know you and I heard you on the phone with someone right before you left," she says.

"It doesn't matter all that matters is that I'm home now" I tell her hoping she will leave me alone.

"You were with Clarke weren't you"

"How the hell did you..."

"Because I know you having feelings for her"

"I kissed her"

"You kissed her, what happened, you seem sad"

"She kissed me back but then pulled away, and then she pretty much said that she wasn't ready to be with anyone and that she didn't want to wreck the friendship we have" I say trying not to break down.

"I'm sorry Bell, but she did just get out of a really bad relationship so I don't blame her for wanting to wait" she says, wait did she say really bad relationship?

"What do you mean a really bad relationship?"

"She didn't tell you...Finn used to hit her and he has tried to force her to sleep with him but luckily he didn't get that far"

"What? Are you serious he tried to force her"

"Yeah, I'm surprised she didn't tell you because of all the things you've talked about"

"It never came up, she told me about the hitting but that's it"

Octavia finally let me go to bed and it's about 2:45am, I go to bed but I can't seem to fall asleep after what O told me. I can't believe Clarke never told me about Finn tried to force her to sleep with him and now I have an even better reason to hate him and kick his ass, I have never liked spacewalker (Finn) and I never will, he has hurt many people and I know I was a player but the girls I slept with knew it was just sex and nothing else. Knowing that Clarke was hurt by him makes me want to kill him and she is not the only one I know he has hurt also my friend Raven witch I know Clarke knows her but they are not that close as far as I know.

Clarke's P.O.V

Bellamy dropped me off and I kinda stayed outside for 15 minutes but then Murphy saw me through the window and I knew I was in trouble, oh I hope I can get out of this. He comes outside and practicly drags me inside and sits me down on the couch and he looks pissed, and I know I'm going to get a lecture from him.

"Where the hell were you!" he yells at me.

"Out, what's the big deal?" I ask him.

"Because it's almost 2:00am and I told you to be home before 10:00pm"

"Your not my dad, I don't have to listen to you, if I want to be out until 2:00am then I will, I know your worried about me and you care but you don't have to be"

"Yes I do, you're my baby sister and we are all each others got"

"No, you're all I got but you have mom, the only reason I live here is because you forced her, she doesn't care about me and neither does Kane, Kane's only nice to me because of you. You are all I have left, my dad died right in front of me, you have people who want you and the only person who wants me is you"

"I'm sorry, but I'm always going to worry about you"

"I know but if I am out at 2:00am then you have to trust me that I'll be responsible and I will make it home okay" I tell him almost crying.

"Okay, but you were out with Blake and I don't trust him with you" he says trying to calm me down.

"I know and he's not a player anymore and we did kiss but I'm not ready to date and I told him I didn't want to mess up the friendship we have created"

"Okay but I don't want him to hurt you"

"I know, and I love you for it but can I go to bed now please"

"Yeah, see you in morning or afternoon"