Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Bellamy's P.O.V

Clarke and I were at our spot and as soon as she was out of the car she ran as fast as she could to the edge of the cliff, I was worried that she ran a little too fast and she would slip off the edge but she didn't and when I saw her face she looked so free. I walked up behind her and put my hands on her lower back and when I did that I felt her relax at my touch, I thought back to everytime my skin touched her and how every time they touched she relaxed instantly. So when that happens it gives me a little hope that I can make her fall for me at one point, she is not like anyone I've ever met and I know that is cliché but it's true, she is so sweet and kind but so quiet.

I saw her spacing out and I knew I couldn't hide my feelings for her anymore "what you thinking about Princess" I asked her.

"Nothing, don't worry about it" she says. I let go of her and I went to sit against a tree, looked at me when I let her go and I knew that she was probably wondering why I let go of or why I put my hands on her back in the first place. "What's wrong" she asks me when she sits next to me.

"Nothing...just thinking" I tell her.

"A penny for your thoughts"

"I'm thinking about you" I say before I even knew I said it.

"Why" she asked.

"I can't get you out of my head"

"Why, I'm not special if anything I'm nothing"

"You're not nothing...ever since I found you on that curb alone and we got to talking I haven't been able to get you out of my head"

"Why me, you could have anyone...you probably have had everyone and I just can't..."

"You still think I'm a player don't you" I interrupt her.

"Well aren't you" she asks, trying to hold back tears that were trying to come down her face.

"No, when I got into a relationship with Gina I stopped being a player because I wanted to better then that I don't want to be that person anymore"

"Why should I believe you"

"You shouldn't but I want you to...have I ever told you a lie"

"Well no but how do I know you aren't just saying this"

Instead of answering her I pulled her closer to me and put my lips on hers, for a moment she didn't kiss back but then she did and the feeling I got was the best thing in the world. I tilt my head to deepen the kiss and then I swipe my tongue across her bottom lip asking for entrance and she gives it to me, the kiss lasts a few minutes then she pulls away.

"Bellamy..." she starts to say.

"What?" I ask.

"I can't...I can't get hurt again, and I know you're going to say you won't hurt me but the truth is that you don't know if you are going to...please just don't ruin this friendship we have please"

"Why do you think I will hurt you"

"I don't think you will I just don't want to be hurt and if something happen and most likely it will because we are in high school I don't only lose a significant other I also lose a friend and I don't want that to happen"

"I understand where you are coming from but if you don't open up your heart again then how will you ever be happy with someone in the future"

"Someone once told me Love was weakness and I didn't listen to her and after she died I still thought that she was wrong and then I got hurt so I need you to understand that I am not ready to give my heart to anyone and I don't want to lose a friend" she says

"Your aunt" I say.

"Yeah..."

"Okay" We sat there quietly, I get why she doesn't want to open her heart up and I get why she doesn't want to with me but part of me just can't help but feel hurt...maybe I was wrong about her liking me the way I do for her. "Do you want me to take you home?" I ask her.

"What time is it?" she asks me in return.

I look at my phone and it reads 1:45am "15 till 2:00am"

"Yeah I should get home before Murphy gets even more pissed than he already is"