Love isn't weakness (Bellarke fanfic)

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Clarke's P.O.V

"Fine I'll talk to him" I say to O when she is talking to Bellamy on the phone.

"Okay" O says.

"What do you want?" I ask him rudely.

"How have you been?" he asks.

"Fine"

"You hate me don't you"

"I don't hate you, I'm just upset with you"

"I understand that, how's Murphy"

"He's fine...what did you want to talk to me about?"

"So you're coming back here and Murphy is going to be working with me" he says.

"Yeah, and I'll be working with your mom" I tell him while rolling my eyes.

"You're a dance teacher?"

"No I'm a art teacher for grades 11 and 12"

"Cool"

"Anyway is your mom there"

"She should be, give me a minute"

He left off the screen and then Aurora came on, "hey sweetheart, how have you been this week" she says.

"I'm okay, but my head is a rollercoaster right now" I tell her.

"You need to get things sorted out with my son"

"I know but that's not the problem right now, remember what we talked about the last time we talked, well..."

"You didn't do it did you"

"I couldn't, I'll tell you about it when I see you next week"

"Okay, well I'll see you girls later okay, I love you guys"

"We love you too" me and O say at the same time.

The video call ended and I knew Aurora was right, I needed to end my relationship and I needed to sort things out with Bellamy. Octavia doesn't know anything about what me and Aurora talked about for the past few weeks but I know she wants to know.

"So how are you and your boyfriend?" she asks me. Yeah I have a boyfriend and I don't feel anything for him and that's what me and Aurora have been talking about.

"We're fine..." I say trying not to seem like I'm lying.

"What are you not telling me"

"Him and I have been dating for 6 months and so he thinks it's a good idea to get down on one knee and ask me to marry him and it was in front of a lot of people so I said yes"

"You did what?...is that what my mom was asking about"

"Yeah, I told her I was going to break up with him and before I could he asked me to marry him in front of a lot of people"

"Wow, and you couldn't talk to my mom about this because..." she asks dragging out the word 'because'

"Bellamy" I say quickly.

"Wow"

"I know I'm a horrible person"

I don't know what to do, I liked Joe (my boyfriend/fiancé) but I don't love him and one thing is that he doesn't know that I'm going back to Vancouver where everyone I know and love is, he told me he wants us to move to Florida. I can't and won't, I just don't know how to end it with him, and I couldn't say no to him at all because everyone was looking at me with happy faces and I knew all of them wanted me to say yes. When I did say yes everyone cheered and was happy for me and all I could do was fake a smile and pretend I was happy when I wanted to scream and die. 

"Earth to Clarke!" Octavia yells at me.

"What" I ask.

"What are you going to do"

"I don't know, I'm a horrible person aren't I"

"No you are not, but you should have been honest with him and not say yes but he shouldn't have asked you in front of many people that you don't know...if it was me and Lincoln did that I would be so pissed" 

"I just feel horrible and like I'm a bad person"

"Well you're not, you were just scared to say no because of all the people that were watching"

"You really think that"

"Yeah, now come on we have to get ready for drinks tonight" O says to me. I really don't want to go and have drinks even though I could use some.

"Do I have to go, I just want to sit here, eat junk food, and watch Netflix" I tell her. I could tell that Octavia wasn't going to take no for an answer but I wasn't going because I don't want to be around people right now.

"Please go with"

"No, I don't want to go"

"Fine, but you will regret it"

With that O left with Lincoln and I was alone in the apartment, I went to the kitchen and made some popcorn and some hot coco. I got to the living room and put on ' Dear John' (I love this movie) and within 20 minute in the movie there's a knock at my door. I got up and opened my door and I can not believe who is standing at my door.