Perfect Beat

Chapter 5 *talk*

Chapter 5 *talk

[MIKE’S POV]

It’s been a year when we’ve met. And now, I’m here letting it drift. Letting it pass by. I feel a mixed emotion. Butterflies begun to fly on my stomach. I know it’s the right time. I know it’s not the love it’s only that pity.

After class dismissal, dumiretso na ako sa U-garden.kung saan kami madals magkita noon. Almost one hour na akong naghihinatay still wala pa rin siya. As the sun sets the time passes by. I texted her again: NASAAN KA NA? I’m still waiting.

6:32pm

As I stood up I already figure out that she is approaching. I calm myself and prepare the words that I’m going to say.

“Mike!” he hugged me with one arm. “Happy 1st Anniversary!” then she gave me the gift.  She’s so happy. She’s so hopeful. But I don’t wanna to prolong her burden. Mas lalo pa siyang masasaktan kapag ipinagpatuloy ko ito.

If I’m letting this feeling too far, I may just hurt her twice.

“S-sorry Ruth but we need to end this now”

Her voice lowered. “HA? Are you breaking me up?”

Her eyes drew a sudden feeling. Then, I nodded.

Her tears begun to escape from her eyes.”But… w-why? I love you and I know you still love me, isn’t it?”

“Yes Ruth, but it’s not the love you deserve. You deserve someone better than me. You deserve to be love but not with me. S-sorry, bu-but I never love you”

She cupped her face with her hands and weep. “B-but Mike, I love you and I don’t care even you never loved me before. Just- just let me love you. Matutununan mo rin naman akong mahalin, di ba? Di ba?”

I removed her hands cupping in her face and wipe the tears on her cheeks. “I tried to love you, but it didn’t work and I didn’t learn how. S-sorry Ruth, it’s over and I don’t want to be selfish so I’m letting you now to go. I may just hurt you if I’ll prolong lying to you that I love you.”

She removed my fingers. “Mike!!!”

“Sorry Ruth, sorry I forgot I wasn’t allowed to have feelings. Could we just be friends?”

She’s still crying. “W-why? Why mike? Is there someone else?”

I need to make an excuse. “If I would say yes, would you now let me go? I don’t want to hold on this relationship that will cause more pains if we continue.”

She nodded turning her back wiping her tears. “Goodbye Mike!!”

“Thank you for everything you’ve done Ruth!” I just noticed that my tears are escaping in my eyes, I hate this kind of feeling. It kills me! It kills me more than I thought. HELL! TT__TT

I shouldn’t be like this. I’d never loved her but why it so painful to hurt someone’s heart. I know that everything that happened may just pass. Maybe this is only a narrow feeling of an unsophisticated love.

I was about to leave the place when…

“Aaaaaaacccccccccchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhoooooooooooooooooooooo”

I turned my back. Who’s that?

[CASSEY’S POV]

*sigh* I move a little from the tree I’m hiding. I was about to run when Mike grabbed my shoulder. “Cassey?”