Caught In The Middle | Jimin & Jungkook x Reader

11 - Stop This

Jimin and me both had to go into the office and we thought it was a better idea to not share the car. We weren't interested in people finding out.

or at least that's what I thought that the reason was..

During lunch his team joined ours but similar to after we shared the kiss he avoided any contact, even eye contact.

I started to feel really uneased.

Why was he behaving this way?

He had left early that day so I couldn't talk to him about it after work. The entire week he behaved this way again. That happiness I felt that morning, waking up together with him, diminished very quickly into ash. This was giving me some actual anxiety.

Was there something I did wrong? 

Friday afternoon I saw him leave again and I knew I had to confront him, otherwise I'd eat myself up the entire weekend again. Without any answers from his side there was nothing I could do.

      'Jimin, can I talk to you for a moment?' I asked and he seemed to freeze, with this hint of panic in his complexion.

That was not a good sign.

We went into one of the empty available meeting rooms. This one didn't have the glass so people couldn't see us.

I stepped closer

    'What's going on Jim?' I asked in a soft voice while caressing his cheek.

He took my hand gently and brought it back down.

     'We have to stop this y/n' 

I stepped back and tensed up

   'really? again? Are you fucking serious?' My tone was deliberately hostile.

He had this mixture of hurt and guilt on his face.

     'It's hard to explain y/n'

I scoffed

    'hmm sure, hey y/n I kiss you and then ignore you, then fuck you and take distance again. I think that sums it up doesn't it?'

Jimin looked away by my sudden and quite direct confrontation but honestly, I was done with his shit. This rage was really coming over me.

He sighed deeply, but then without emotion let out the thing that had bothered him, that made him behave this way.

    'I am engaged to be married'

The ground seemed to be pulled right under me. My legs became wobbly, actually I became totally unsteady.

How was that even possible?

    'W-what?' I uttered out.

He sighed and looked down

     'It's an arranged marriage but yes I am engaged. My parents set it up three years ago. She is the daughter of an influential Japanese businessman. We hardly see each other, actually never. They gave me till I turn 30 and then I have to move there.'

I don't know why but I felt like he was lying or something. Perhaps it was because every fiber of my being wanted it to be a lie.  

     'You're lying' I let out, he shook his head, with tears in his eyes. It honestly must have been the first time since I met him I saw a glimpse of him at the verge of actually crying.

and that convinced me that he was for real

    'You fucking asshole' I said it as astounded as I was and, in a way, appalled; he slept with me knowing this. and foremost, without me knowing it.

    'I don't love her y/n, I lov..' he cut off his own sentence. in a way I could guess what he was about to say and I also in no way wanted to hear those words leave his mouth right now.

   'I don't need to hear anything you have to say anymore, your words are toxic.'

    'From now on, you better stay the hell away from me' 

With that I turned around and Jimin grabbed my arm to stop me.

     'y/n, wait I'm s,,,.' I didn't really let him finish but I threw him on the floor with some force.

He looked up with widened eyes while I could sense the hurt this throw inflicted.

    'I said stay the hell away, that definitely includes not touching me' I grunted

     'bye Jimin'

With that I left him behind, not giving another glance. I walked the hallway, my thoughts all over the place. 

Jimin pov

I sat up again, following y/n with my eyes as she left the room. A deep ache in my heart.

It was really hard to see her so heartbroken, and yet it needed to be done.

It just wasn't right

I tried so hard to stay away, to distance myself from my feelings for her, but I couldn't anymore.

It felt right, what we did. There was no trace of doubt in my mind about that. I wished I could have her sleeping in my arms like that every night, and waking up together every morning.

But considering the circumstances it wasn't right. 

y/n pov

He was engaged

all this time, he had been engaged

It made sense, I mean now I understood why he never dated or even had any reaction to flirt attempts from female colleagues. But in a way it didn't make sense. He was my partner, how could he never mention this to me? How did none of us thought of this or suspected this?

And most of all why did he sleep with me?

I shook my head, my body was so overwhelmed by anger.

I returned to my desk to gather my stuff and also go home. I really didn't want to stay for another minute.

    'y/n, any nice plans for the weekend?'

Jungkook's voice echoed through my ears. It was as if he was far away not standing next to me. I moved my head sideways and I saw his cute smile, his cute glasses. 

    'No' I replied curtly, and it was clear that my short answer both surprised as well as upset Jungkook.

    'oh uhm okay' he said while looking down. I sighed, immediately feeling guilty;

I shouldn't take this out on him. I was just still feeling so angry.

    'I am sorry Jungkook.'

I was ready to leave but noticed Jungkook walked along next to me.

     'Is everything okay y/n?'

     'Yes just some stuff is going on. I just got to go home.. be alone for a while. Enjoy your weekend'

     'uhm sure you too y/n' he replied puzzled.

and with that I left the office, without saying goodbye to the rest.

Completely unsettled.