Caught In The Middle | Jimin & Jungkook x Reader

29 - The Talk

Jimin pov

I was at work and waiting for Jungkook to arrive. After the things that happened the past days I really did need to talk to him.

So much had become clear to me, so much that I had to discuss with him.

I was talking to Dong-min when Jungkook arrived, but my heart dropped when I saw that y/n arrived together with him.

     'y/n, Jungkook!' Dong-min exclaimed 'you two are late.' he said it in a certain tone insinuating something...

Something I really didn't want to think about. but also one that to me seemed very unlikely.

y/n scratched the back of her neck 'I wasn't feeling well.' she said in a genuine tone and as I knew the whole truth it also wasn't too strange she wasn't feeling fantastic.

It also made me worried.

She looked at me and we exchanged a glance, I only nodded. 'I'd better go to my team and apologize I wasn't there yesterday' she quickly said and left all of us. 

     'Jungkook could I talk to you for a moment?' I asked and I immediately saw he was not amused. Dong-min looked at us with this anticipation as if he was watching a kdrama on tv.

For them it seemed this was all about y/n, I couldn't say that in this particular case it wasn't, but it wasn't only that of course.

    'sure' Jungkook eventually answered. He followed me and I thought about a safe place to talk.

The place yn would flee too, the rooftop.

    'This is a nice place' Jungkook said while looking around. 

    'yeah y/n always comes here when she feels bad.

     'oh' Jungkook's tone was evidently jealous, probably because I knew something about her he didn't. 

We sat down at the concrete block.

     'so what do you want to talk about?' Jungkook asked but his tone already betrayed the fact he knew. It was rather as if he was asking a rhetorical question.

     'Come on kook, we need to talk about everything that happened and especially about y/n. Taehyung was right, we have been keeping secrets and it all relates to her.'

Jungkook sat silently, listening to everything I had to say. He was good at that, actually listening to people. I sighed

     'she is the girl you frequently talked about.. The one that you loved years ago, the one that inspired you. I don't understand why you never mentioned it was y/n.'

Jungkook shrugged 'because it was in the past, and for our operations it wasn't important. She was just another detective we had to fool.'

     'That was until you had to join yourself and you experienced it wasn't that black and white.' I indicated while trying to sound as least annoyed as I possibly could. Because he put me up for that task, and he would always look it logically but now that he was put in that position it wasn't too logical anymore.

Jungkook nodded 'yeah.'

     'you know she loves you right?' I then said, with a heavy heart.

The confusion was very visible on Jungkook's face. He needed some time to answer me

    'why are you telling me that? Didn't you sleep with her because you love her?' 

I sighed deeply.

    'I do yes.. but I do not have that comfortableness and familiarity with her that you do, that she needs. plus and foremost considering everything... I do not see how I could be with her, you know what I did.'

I didn't specify what I meant exactly with the latter part but it seemed Jungkook understood. That didn't mean I didn't need to say it out loud again.

   'When he was killed you said not to do anything, that it perhaps was better if Jaehyun went to jail and if he would be a snitch so should we, but at least there was closure and justice. but I made the choice to make the evidence disappear.'

We both stared ahead

    'and I haven't gathered the courage to tell y/n this either. the thing is I still don't regret doing that.' 

Jungkook looked at me shocked at my sudden confession

      'Don't get me wrong, It's horrible what happened, and if I could turn back time I'd do anything to stop that guy from getting killed but it happened it was a terrible accident. but thinking that Tae, hobi, you and I had to go to jail for that, while especially you were so eminent on not killing anyone. Plus the funds for the charities that would stop. I couldn't let that happen.'

Jungkook sighed as well

     'You're more alike to y/n than you think. but I understand your reasons. I am not sure if you should tell her right now either. I think at some point yes, but she is going through so much already.' 

I nodded in agreement, adding this painful information on the shit she already had to process would maybe be the last drop.

I then asked the question that was the reason I asked Jungkook for a talk in the first place;

     'but can I please leave the police force?' I urged and I saw the hesitation on Jungkook's face, his never ending contemplation because he was always thinking about the risks. Eventually he shook his head and I prepared to go into a discussion again, as he would reject my proposition, but instead he said the unexpected

    'That's okay Jimin, let's find you something else to do, to make it less suspicious.'

Jungkook pov

It wasn't according to the plan, as he still had some months ahead but I tried to stand in his shoes for a moment. After everything that happened, he had to constantly see y/n and it was killing him. If the roles were reversed I'd feel the same.

I normally looked at everything very rationally, but ever since I spent time with y/n that changed. She had brought that side of me back. And in this case I listened to feelings and not rationale. There was an obvious relief and gratitude plastered on Jimin's face, and that made me sure I made the right decision.

      'Let's take a day to figure out the details of your departure alright? So you can hand in your resignation tomorrow and you will leave the first of next month?'

Jimin pov

Jungkook left first and I still stared into the city in front of me. I buried my face into my hands and finally let some tears escape. Crying wasn't something that familiar to me, I never did it yet at this moment it was a relief to do so. I was aware I had given free way for Jungkook with y/n, I had even pushed him more in her direction.

Perhaps if I would really fight for y/n I'd have a chance but I'd hurt all of us in the process. plus hadn't I been in a sinking ship anyways ever since Jungkook arrived?

Though it might have been the hardest and most painful thing I had to do, it was also the right thing.