Caught In The Middle | Jimin & Jungkook x Reader

33 - A Nightmare

We finally arrived at my place and we stood outside my apartment. The taxi together with Namjoon just left. I knew it would be difficult in this part of town and at this hour to quickly get a new taxi.

Then as if circumstances weren't already pushing Jungkook and me together, it started to rain.

The thing was that I also wanted to discuss the evening ,especially this whole Namjoon thing.

     'You want to have tea.. upstairs?' I asked and Jungkook shyly looked away, the raindrops covering his hair quickly.

     'You don't have to invite me in y/n, I can wait outside. The rain is fine.'

      'I uh.. I thought it could be nice to discuss and you can wait inside, no need for you to get sick.'

     'uhm yes okay' Jungkook shyly agreed.

We silently walked up the stairs to my apartment.

    'What did you think of tonight?' I subtly asked hinting on Namjoon. 

      'Namjoon is indeed suspecting you of something. I will keep an eye on it but we should be cautious.'

     'yeah he freaks me out.' I let out with a chuckle and that also triggered a chuckle from Jungkook's side.

    'He is like crazy smart.' He said with this respect and adoration.

      'so are you.' I shrugged and immediately the shy Jungkook was back.

We talked a bit more and every now and then Jungkook checked his phone for an uber or he tried to call the taxi but nobody was available. probably because of the weather, as the rain had turned into a pretty awful storm. After around an hour I yawned openly.

   'Hey y/n, I can wait outside its no problem. You can go to bed.' Jungkook suggested.. 

I shook my head 'you can stay here and uhm sleep on the couch if you want?'

Jungkook awkwardly looked at the couch.

     'I mean it wouldn't be the first time. Really it's fine.' I added and ultimately he gave in

I took out a spare toothbrush, I always had some around. I handed it to him and he thanked me in return. At the same time we were in my bathroom brushing our teeth. There was without a doubt a tension, yet it wasn't an uncomfortable one.

Brushing my teeth with my crush in my bathroom who fyi was a robbery gang leader.

When I thought of it like that it seemed unlikely, yet it wasn't.

Eventually I got some blankets and put them on the couch.

    'Good night Jungkook.'

     'Good night y/n.'

I was in a van with Jimin as well as Dong-Min and Seojun. We were going at an insane speed, the sound of the sirenes drowned out everything.

I ran inside and gasped loudly as I saw a figure on the ground, a pool of blood surrounding him. I rushed closer, my heart dropped when I saw it was Jin.

I immediately kneeled down and took him in my arms

    'Jin, stay with me.' I pleaded while sobbing uncontrollably. I shouted 'WE NEED TO HELP HIM.'

There were people around but nobody listened

     'PLEASE' I repeated, but nobody looked around.

     'y/n' Jins voice was so weak

I caressed his cheek 'don't give up Jin. an ambulance will come. you'll make it.'

     'Did you forget about me y/n?' he then almost whispered

     'what? no!' I exclaimed

      'then why aren't you arresting the person responsible.'

I looked up and suddenly Jungkook was standing in front of us. In one hand the gun and the other was dripping with blood.

    'No he didn't do this.' I said with a trembling voice while shaking my head. as I looked down back at Jim he had closed his eyes and his chest didn't move anymore, indicating he was also not breathing.

I woke up, my heart was beating rapidly and I was drenched with sweat. I slowly made my way to living room. I wanted to get myself a glass of water in an attempt to calm myself down. but then I saw Jungkook sleeping on my couch. 

I didn't know what took hold of me. The images of my dream replaying in my mind. It was as if I wasn't thinking rationally anymore. And instead of a glass I opened the drawer of my cutlery and my hand reached for the knife.

I slowly made my way to the couch, it was perhaps, no probably, a desperate attempt to undertake anything.

When I reached Jungkook's sleeping figure I held out my hand slowly bringing the knife closer to his throat.

It was a sort of dream state like because it seemed as if I wasn't entirely conscious of what I was doing.

Suddenly his eyes shot open and he grabbed my wrist.

     'y/n' he let out and it was in a tone that was partly scared, partly hurt. 

He then let go of my wrist

    'Do it if you want to, if that's what you need.'

Wait, was he actually suggesting I should stab him? that made no sense.

I stared into his eyes and for some reason in that moment I realised he was eating himself up as well about everything that happened.

He was consumed with guilt, like me.

      'w-what?'

       'if that is the justice that you seek' his voice trembled, I hadn't experienced it before. this insecurity with him. 

I was feeling so conflicted, there were no words for it. It would have been easier if he didn't feel guilt,

if he didn't have a thought through reason to why he was doing this

I mean it would have been hard because the guy I liked turned out to be a complete psycho but on the other hand I could have turned him in. Right now there was a continuous battle inside of me of seeking justice for Jin and my feelings for Jungkook.

My lower lip trembled and a single tear rolled down my cheek

       'I want to hate you so badly, with every fiber of my being.. yet I can't'

It was true, I just couldn't. It was that effect he had on me, the only person ever I couldn't hate I suppose.

Jungkook grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer, meaning that I fell over and he held me in an embrace. he caressed my back with one hand and my hair with the other.

      'I am so sorry y/n'

      'I am also sorry' I wept