Caught In The Middle | Jimin & Jungkook x Reader

23 - What to Do

He shortly rushed in again with these letters in his hands.

    'Please.. just read them' he asked with begging eyes.

My eyes scanned the lined

Dear anonymous donor,

We want to thank you for your generous donations that are regularly transferred to our little hospital. You have no idea how much this means to everyone, especially the patients and their families who struggle to pay the hospital bills by themselves.

We know you would like to stay anonymous but we would love to meet you and show you around the hospital. As an alternative we have enclosed some of the drawings of the children who are more than grateful for everything you have done.

The envelope was filled with children's drawings. I tried to keep my emotions hidden, because to be honest I was tearing up. 

Next was a letter from a dog shelter, I guessed this one was a charity of Jungkooks choice, even in the academy he was passionate about saving stray dogs. There were pictures enclosed with all these happy dogs in there. The owner expressed her very extensive gratitude for all the money, indicating she was able to save hundreds of stray dogs due to these generous donations.

Jungkook handed me another letter but I didn't want to read it. It was conflicting and confusing me.

I had to think about Jin, they are the reason he is gone.

     'y/n, you know as well as me and also Jimin that the banks aren't always right. and that the police don't always stand up for the right people. There are no words that are enough to apologize for what happened to your friend. Please believe me that it was an accident, the last thing we wanted. but turning us in because of that will inherently stop these donations and many other lives will be lost. '

I stared sideways, without saying a word.

He eventually got up and left towards the door. He stopped for a moment and looked back

    'Just think about it y/n. please'

Flashback

Jin chugged his beer. 'not a good day at work?' I asked because he just returned from the bank. He wasn't inside for 5 minutes or he opened my fridge, got a beer, and drank it.

   'nah the place really isn't for me, but I need the money for acting school so I'll just keep it.'

    'why is that?'

He shrugged 'well.. We need to deny loans to people who really need it but then people who seem to not have entirely legal business are accepted? It's just because they are rich and powerful. I really don't like it. I bet if you look into it when you're a cop there must be some cases filed against a bank or linked to a bank'

I didn't really believe it so I rolled my eyes 'then why do you stay there?'

    'Like I said, I need money for acting school and it does pay well'

     'but it's fine just another 4 months and then I'll quit that place, because I will have saved up enough money'

Present day

I sighed deeply. I didn't know what to do, I mean what was the choice?

Escape from here and turn them all in, but that would stop the donations for all those charities and it would most definitely mean that Gina will lose her job, plus perhaps the entire team. While the whole station will have to go through that public embarrassment. 

Not even thinking about how for the rest of my life I had to hear shit from my mother. plus sending perhaps the two most important guys in my life to jail wasn't something I'd take lightly either.

I know it was stupid as they both deceived me in a horrible way but aside from hiding this side activity from me they weren't completely different people. It wasn't as if they bragged about all the money they stole or something like that. Or enjoyed going around killing people. 

but the alternative was joining them? Could I really? I didn't disagree with their ideology. I think they had a point. I mean I joined the academy with this sense of helping people, fight for justice, that kind of stuff. but the longer I was at the police the more I saw it didn't always work that way.

Indeed people in power, with money would get away with things while minority groups would have to serve severe sentences for the same offense. but Jin died as a result of their operations, and what if someone else dies in the future as well? Could I really see that only as collateral damage? Could I live with myself?

What should I do?