Why do we do this to ourselves? We blame ourselves for everything that goes wrong. Why? Because we hate our lives? Because we're "emo?" I've been told all of those. The truth? We honestly believe that it's our fault. It has nothing to do with anything else. It's straight up and down. We believe that it's our fault. We blame ourselves for the wrong doings of others. I don't know why we do. But we do. Something in our minds tells us that it's our fault. Our "conscience" in our head telling me that it's my fault. Everything is my fault. Sister slides in ditch in car. My fault for not asking to go with her so I could tell her that she was driving too fast. Mom and dad fight. My fault because I'm a failure of a son who stresses them out and makes things difficult. See? Everything can be my fault.
The reality of the situation? No. Those things aren't our fault. They're really not. I know that's hard to believe 99% of the time but its true. Ya know why bad things happen? Because life. That's why. Life is this long roller coaster that ha ups and downs and the sooner we realize this the happier we will be. But truly and honestly, I know it's not that easy. Hell I'm blaming myself for stuff right now. I'm not saying in this "Do this. It's easy!" No!! I'm not saying that at all actually because I know it's not true AT ALL. Like we can't just wake up one day and decide "Today I'm going to be happy." And move on. No. It doesn't work that way. In fact most days we don't even want to wake up at all. But we do. We keep going even when we don't want to. We wake up when we'd rather be dead. We go to school and smile at everyone and say that we're fine even though we'd much rather tell them the truth of "No. I'm not okay. I need a hug. Please help me." But why would we want to bother anyone with our problems?
