I have so much yet I'm still upset. I don't like talking to people about these feelings because why would I? There are people who had so much less than me so I should be happy. I have a family with both biological parents, friends who love being around me, I have food every day, iPod, home, clothes, bed with blankets and pillows, tv, movies, and so much more. There are people in this world who don't even have toilets. I do. I mean like why should I, someone who has way more than some, be upset? Why should I ask anyone for help? Why should I tell others that I'm upset? How dare I. I know I probably should ask for help or tell someone that I am struggling with self-harm and depression-like symptoms, but my life is good compared to some. Like I said, I have more than some so my life is good. I guess. I know my life is better than a lot of others but I am still upset. I am still having feelings of wanting to die. I don't want to commit suicide. I just wouldn't be upset if someone put a gun to my head and pulled the trigger
