Isn't it funny how death is considered the end of all things, but it's all some of us want most? Like most people like to savor things. Yet don't want them to end right away. Yet for many reasons there are some of us who want the end to come sooner. We see death as an escape. An escape to a happier life where we don't have to deal with panic or anxiety attacks. A life where no one makes fun of you for being you. A life of joy and peace. A life with no judgment. And it sounds amazing. It sounds so much better than this world. Because this world, the one that we live in now?? Yeah, it sucks. Majorly. We are made fun of for being ourselves but are told not to be fake. We are made fun of for the choices we make in life but are told that "you only live once." You see every single thing that the media tells us is bull. They talk about how to stop bullying when in reality they need to be talking less about the other bullies and more about the bullies within ourselves. We have monsters, demons if you will, deep inside us that we can't get rid of. The bully us. They call us weak. They tell us that no one cares about us. That we are worthless. That if we died no one would care.
But no one acknowledges these bullies. These ones get looked over. People tell us to watch out for bullies and to stand up for someone who is getting bullied. But how can we stand up for others when we have bullies of our own to deal with. We hear them all day. We face them at night. We take a risk with just closing our eyes to sleep. We are jammed into a locker that only one person has the combination too and that person is ourself. So we are stuck. We can't get out of it. There's no way. We live with these wretched voices and monsters in our heads. We carry on living when all we want more is to skip through the movie to the end. We want to hit the bottom of the chip bowl. The end. We want it so bad. We want to see our end. We want to feel the sensation of feeling the world around you fade into darkness. Into nothing. We want to just end it now before we get attached to any more movie characters. We don't need that. They all leave anyways. We look at our society and ever little thing contradicts itself and so want to skip through it all and just see.....
........The End
