I'm tired of acting like I'm okay. I'm tired of giving everyone a fake smile. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. I'm tired of not being happy. All I want is to be happy but my mind won't let me. I'm just so tired of all of this. I want to leave. I hate my life. And it's not that I want to commit suicide. It's that I want to run away. Run away from this life that I'm living. Run away from the pain and sadness. Run away from everything. But if I run away I have no where to go. I have no one since I lost her. I know if asked her if she's come she's say yes but when it comes down to it I don't think she would. And the thought of being alone again scares the shit out of me.
