I've experienced a hundred different feelings
And been through even more dealings
But never have felt what I'm feeling today
I don't know how but they lead me astray
All these time I try to study I try to play
But it feels like this heart's still a wet clay
It changes feelings at the smallest hint of you
And I have to control it that's my only clue
I hate you I swear I do, but I can't let this go
I cried many times and wanted it all to flow
But I realised your imprint was so strong
And I felt that it was with you I belong
Our memories are unbearable twisted and broken
And whenever I remember they leave me shaken
Our misunderstanding are too great to be solved
And you can be sure all my hopes have dissolved
We could have reconciled if we wanted I believe
But we couldn't see our losses and only the peeve
The more we tried to talk this out
The more our arguments ended in shout
Finally we both were tired of it and wanted it to end
But were we confident to forget the time we spent?
Through all these thoughts I still blame no one
But after all this time this feeling isn't gone
Even after all this time I can't stop thinking of you
But maybe both of our feelings are now statue
They still exist, but never make any difference
I don't know what word should I use for reference
We both have moved on now along with time
But still can't help recalling when the wind hits the chime
Our connection taught us a lot, both good and bad
But sighing over the memories, the past makes me sad
Never had I thought I would recall you as I am now
But I will never forget you that's an unsaid vow
Even now when we are so apart from each other
I miss you too much and that's all I can gather.
I still can't help imagining all those alternatives
What if we hadn't turned our back on the affirmatives?
What if we had talked this out and gone along together?
Would we be perfect or as changeable like the weather?
What if we had given up our egos and tried to melt?
Would we be back on our terms or remain unfelt?
What if we trusted each other enough not to let others interfere?
Wouldn't we be perfect with all misunderstandings clear?
Its a shame and also a pleasure not to know all this
Cause it has given us a lot to think and to miss
Still no matter what I can't help but wonder....
What if were together and had beat the thunder?
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Ataraxia
PoesiaI cannot recall being whole For I was blown into a million shards So here are some pieces of my soul The only place where I speak with no guards
