The Power Of Calmness

Chapter 39

Her breathing, faint yet harsh, was all that enveloped them. She began panting with eyes, almost poking out of their sockets. She is you! was all that kept echoing in her head. As much as she didnt want to believe or welcome the word, it blossomed her heart. It lightened her up but no, she can't, doesn't and wouldn't even want to let it seep into her.

Bukar was less agitated and apprehensive, he watched as she kept on chasing the words out of her head, unbelieving of them. He wasn't going to back down now, that he is certain about. They have been in silence, peering deep into each other soul through their eyes. Hers wavered as she could no longer bear the intensity of it all. His however, did not falter indicating how determined he was.

"Oh my!" Laughing hysterically, tears at the brim, she blurted out. "You're so hilarious!" She choked on her laugh, gulping down the little in her glass to ease her sudden want for water, which comes uninvited. "This isn't April Bukar, this joke is too expensive."

"Joke? You call this a joke?" He asked, chuckling. "I am not toying with you Habeebah, I am dead serious about this."

"You cannot be serious about this Bukar! No, you cant!" She exclaimed, throwing out her hands. The conversation was gradually making her lose her sanity. "You just can't be!"

"Why do you say that? Am I not good enough that man for you?" He retorted, balling his fists.

"You can't be interested in me Bukar that is just impossible. If this is some joke, I beg of you to stop it now."

"Why is it impossible? And why do you keeping saying it is a joke? You feel you arent worthy of being happy again, is that what you think? For goodness sake Habeebah, you practically asked me to not be a coward and go for what I want!"

"Because I felt you were talking about a different person, I had no hint that the lady in question was actually me!" She replied harshly, gritting her teeth.

"Now that you know it is you we were actually talking about, the whole thing changes isn't it? Bukar asked, pained. "What happened to the 'No woman would miss a chance to have a man like you as their life-partner? Where you just bluffing about it?"

"I wasn't bluffing about it." She hissed. "The thing....."

Bukar interposed. "How great of you to give advices that you do not heed to, just wow!" He laughed bitterly.

"....the thing is...."

"What is it!?" He yelled, aggravated. "What is that thing that is making you not wanting to heed to the advice you gave!? Why are you not leading the path you made!?"

"You know what," She stood up, picking her book. "I am done having this conversation, have a good day." As she walked passed him, he gripped her wrist making her halt. Her breath hitched, shivers ran through her arm as the waft of his cologne once again slapped her nostrils. The hairs on her neck were at attention from how close he was behind her, indicating that he stood up also.

"Well guess what," He began saying quietly. "I am not done and I don't think I will be until you think about what I have said. But I will leave you be for now, as you don't want to entertain this discussion anymore. Have a good day also, Ms. Ribadu." He added, letting go of her wrist and stuffing his in his pockets. She turned back glaring daggers at him, only to be met with a determined look on his face.

"There is nothing to think or talk about," She seethed. "I'd really like if you dont bring it up ever again." She hissed, storming off.

Habeebah was so enraged to the point of insanity. The amount of rage she was feeling, burning and running through her veins, could set a whole house ablaze. Why did he have to say that? How excited was she that she, didn't grasp a hint of who he was referring to? Why wasn't it to a different person? She wanted yelling, screaming, shouting, exulting and most of all, wanted answers to the thousands of questions that were running through her mind. But, she knew she had to keep her cool. She wouldn't want anyone to find out what just happened.