Risk it All [GxG]

24| Everyone and there's me.

"You're fired" I sternly stated after ending the call and frustratedly run my fingers over my head then took a very deep inhaled before looking at the bag in furrowed brows whilst still digging in the back of my head, of what else did I missed?

"....there's alcohol, wet wipes, tissue, her extra shirt in case bee gets sweaty and dirty, her milk powder" I lift up my finger after almost forgetting "the tea tree oil in case she got insect bites" then put the small green bottle inside the bag and now meeting their creased forehead.

"Mommy can you take a day off and join us?" Bee poutingly say in her most sweetest voice.

Then look at Erin, "next time ok? I still have work to finish"

"But mama is done, why can't you?"

"I have loads of work to do Brielle" then caressing her cheeks "it's for you remember? How about I'll buy you new doll when you get home?"

Yet it only earned a subtle nod from Bee while still looking dismay.

I look around, to think if there's more to put in the bag "Bella it's fine, I got her—"

"No it's not! You're gone for 5 years remember? so how will you know that it's gonna be fine when this is your first time to take her out?" and it's all too late to realize that my temper gets the best of me again and Brielle have to witness it. Damn it.

I sharply breathed and look down to Bee calmly but there were already tears in her eyes "mommy, I can just play here so you will not get mad to mama, sorry if I asked to go to the zoo..." Bee starts to cry that it instantly makes me panic of what to do.

Erin carried her while caressing her back and trying to make her stop from crying, yet all I can do is watch them guiltily while running my fingers over my head out of frustration.

"Baby don't cry, mommy is not mad at me. We're not fighting ok? She's just stressed from work" Erin assuringly says to bee.

I step forward and gently placing my palm in her back "sorry bee, I didn't mean to get mad at mama ok? There's just a lot of work but I promise to go with you next time alright?"

She's still sulking when bee look at me as I wipe her tears while her cheeks is pressed against Erin shoulder.

"I don't wanna see you get mad to mama because of me" I pressed my lip together after hearing her. It hurts to see how she blamed herself.

"Never because of you my little bee" Erin saying to her.

"We love you so, so much and I'm sorry for what I said to mama. Can you please forgive me?"

"If you're really not mad to mama can you prove it with a kiss?" I'm sure I almost choke myself in my saliva before glancing at Erin who seemed baffled as well.

Bee push herself a little from Erin chest and now looking at her "whenever mommy's mad at me, she kiss me as a seal of forgiveness" then pointing to Erin lips before diverting to me "right mommy?"

"It's different Brielle" I flatly stated before turning around to zip the bag.

"But why different mommy? Elora says that she was made out of love"

I turned around and handed the bag to Erin before switching to Bee who's still staring at me in dismay "You are. You are made of love baby"

"So why can't you kiss mama?"

"Because kissing someone means you love each other"

"And you don't love mama?"

"No. Bee, I thought we already talked about Erin and I? Didn't I tell you that we have our love ones now? I have you and she has her too"