Risk it All [GxG]

9| Erin

"Stop it!" Audrey grabbing my phone "and stop crying! Seriously Isabella we're in the bar, Cardi B is even singing boss bitch, the rhythm is upbeat and you are gawking your eyes out just because of your stupid girlfriend!"

I took the tequila shot, draining it all, instantly feeling its burning substance rolling down inside my throat, "what can I do? Have you seen Daphne story? She's with Erin! It was like they're already shoving their fucking relationship even we're still TOGETHER!" I caught few heads in our row tilting at us and hell I couldn't care less.

"Because I told you to breakup with her you stupid hoe!" Audrey started to cry too before taking her last shot and gesturing for another round "please stop crying" she tried to wipe my tears but still continuously falling down.

After seeing Daphne posted picture with Erin together, my life before my eyes felt like slowly crashing down.....everything just stops.

"Let's kill the bitch" I faintly smiled to Audrey.

The bartender places four shot glass in front of us and giving us this judgy gaze before attending another customer on his left side.

"You gotta be kidding me!" We both tilted our heads to Maddison mad face "you are both drunk!"

"We know" I say to her but already feeling something strange from my throat.

"Oh fuck! Not here!" Maddy immediately grab me by arms together with Audrey pulling the both of us inside the cubicle where I released the sour substance while clutching my aching stomach.

"I cannot do this alone. You leave me no choice, sorry Bella" Maddy pulled out her phone, it took few rings before someone pick up the line while Audrey and I are slumping ourselves in the floor with this dizzy sight as the small room is starting to spin and Maddy voice is sounding distorted.

She is looking to me, in deep shit mad but I had to tell Maddison how much I love her and I'm so grateful that she is my friend "Maddy listen to me. I love you with all my heart" Audrey pushing herself for balance, hugging Maddy one more time while my arms are already wrapped around to her beautiful body "You are the best person in my life and did I say how much I love you? And I'm so blessed and thankful that your parents met and had sex and didn't used a condom so you could exist in this world"

"Can you come quick? I can't deal with two drunk clingy girls" we giggled, she is super cute whenever she's mad.

"Hey Bella remember when we're in Bali vacation and we accidentally saw Maddy and Mike doing deeds in the hot tub?" Audrey starts and we both find ourselves laughing at the memory "maybe they're trying to recreate another Maddison"

I laughed but finding myself gawking the sour substance as starts to pour out from my mouth and had to burst out in the floor while Audrey is laughing before joining me, filling sour substances with the funky smell is triggering more for me to puke out as if  we're having a puking competition.

"God!" Maddy groaned in complete annoyance while helping us out with our hair.

Someone is knocking the cubicle and Maddy hurriedly standing to open it, "Am I thinking you too much that now I'm starting to see like you're actually real?" the girl look like my Erin.

She even smelled one when she help me to stand up "You're so drunk Bella"

It makes me cry, "you even sound like Erin"

We slowly walked in the lavatory and the girl who look like Erin is tucking my hair in a low ponytail as I gripped both end of the tile for support due to this crazy dizziness.

"I will take Audrey okay? Thanks for picking up the call" I turned around and hugging Maddy with Audrey.

"You know you can always call me, especially if it's about Bella"

"Yeah and I hope you both sort whatever is happening Erin. She don't deserve to hurt like this but if you really want to end the relationship then do it right"

"I'm sorry Maddy" I squinted my eyes to the girl who looked like and sounds like Erin, she is so serious talking to Maddison.

"Who are you?" I asked.

She took a step and pulling me out from Maddy and Audrey and watching the two in dizzy sight leaving the room while Audrey seemed mad about something as she keeps on casting profanities along the way.

"Let's go home bee"

"Why you calling me that? Only Erin calls me that...." and starts to feel like crying for thinking about Erin probably spending the night with that gorgeous bitch woman "is the whole place literally spinning or just in my head?" I don't know whether to speak first or close my eyes because, honestly, the whole place is spinning and my eyelids feels heavy.

My head drops down when a strong arms starts to carry me and everything went blurry, all I know, the place is annoyingly noisy, the people were dancing and her smell is intoxicating.

"Stay still okay?" She says after placing me down inside the car and watching her buckled my seatbelt before going around to the driver side.

Even her side profile reminds me of Erin.

"Is it really easy to unloved someone?" I asked after settling in the driver side.

"Sleep okay?" She says as I blink the tears away.

"She's so beautiful. Daphne. So perfect, so beautiful, rich and successful" tilting my head to this girl with her hands suddenly resting on top of my hand, I don't mind. I didn't have enough energy to complain about her holding me because her touch feels so familiar "Daphne is everything I want to be. Honestly, they even look so perfect together. Erin deserves so much better, I know that...but I thought I was enough....well, clearly, I was wrong because if I'm enough then she will never find someone other than me"

"Bella stop it" she speaks densely.

I look forward, staring in the stoplight under the blurry vision before looking back to her.

"You know I love you so much...from the moment that you stood up for me, even though my parents despised you" a faint chuckle slipped between wiping my tears "But not once I heard you talking back to my parents....you just....stayed for me. I can still clearly remember that night. Your head was down and taking it all" those memories is still hunting me. I couldn't put words how she must be humiliated that day.

And telling her that they will never accept her for me? that she don't deserve me, that she should stay away because we are just both girls who's confused, that, she was a bad influence to me because their daughter turned out to be a gay too. That it was all her fault.

And all those hurtful words and insults, she never talk back and that made me love her even more and promise myself that I will love Erin forever even to our darkest time. That I will fight and stay for her, the way she did to me.

"I love you so much even it fucking hurts" I say, slowly closing my heavy eyelids.