Risk it All [GxG]

40| This feeling.

After talking to Mrs. Kim and now driving back home, no one dared to make a conversation and this silent between us is too loud and becoming unbearable no matter how I try to busy myself by scrolling to my emails....but the details is basically not sinking into my mind.

After parking, my feet hurriedly step out from the car ".....sorry Bella" she stated lowly but my eyes stays to nothingness but this sinking feeling is starting to slowly resurface again no matter how hard I push it back "I know you don't want any of my help but seems like I couldn't stop myself. Sorry for meddling to your business"

I sharply breathe after sliding back my phone to the bag and turned to her in blank expression "who told you about it?"

"I saw your page one time and asked Maddison. She told me that you're trying to establish clients" 

Back then, the struggle of getting the trust of people is hard, like hitting a moon with a rock. I mean, it is understandable, we're new and who would want to trust their business to newbies when you can just pick experts.

But just when I thought that I finally had that luck after successfully booking our first client, it turns out that I damn failed and it has to be her to save me......and it sucks. It really makes me feel sucks.

"......bee" Erin shattering those thoughts when her voice softly calls my name.

Yet it only earned me a sarcastic scoff behind this tearful eyes "I must be looking like a complete fool while bragging how much I did it without any help but unfortunately, like life wants to fuck me up, it turned out that it was all because of your helped. You're the reason why I'am here. Guess shame on me huh?....no matter what I do.....it feels like I couldn't do anything by just me and of all people....... it has to be the person who left me" I say before sighing disappointedly with my shoulder slumping defeatedly.

"No Bella. It's not because of me. You're the reason of your success and besides my recommendation is useless if it wasn't for your talent and skills"

"Stop it Erin. Just stop whatever you're doing!" I look away to breathe out from that outburst.

Relaxed, calm down and breathe slowly....I couldn't let my emotions get the best of me again.

Until my phone rings in my pocket and had to check on it, only to see Glen calling and irritatedly answering it.

Me: what?
Glen: where are you? Mom is already at the cake shop for tasting but Sophia told me that you rescheduled the appointment without telling me.

He sounds so pissed in controlled relaxed voice but can still hear his low growl of anger....and at this point? I don't know where my frustrations really coming from.

Glen: you know how's this so important to mom. She was so excited Marian. It is my mom first time to arrange a wedding. So you better show up tomorrow for the flower selection.

I took a very deep breath before answering and watching Erin walking to her dad.

Me: I can't. I already rescheduled everything when I get back.
Glen: what? Where are you right now? I'm going to pick you.

And hears his rummaging keys.

Me: No need. I'll be back tomorrow. I'm busy right now, bye.

Then ended the call.

"Mama grandpa is a superhero! He climbed into the roof using a very long ladder and he isn't scared!" Bee happily telling to Erin while hugging her new bee stuff toy "he fixed the AC!" Then turning to me in bright smiling eyes "Mommy! Did you know that I helped granny to make our breakfast? Come on now! See what we prepared"