A Missing Part

EPILOGUE

Rainy days amazed me. Sometimes it annoys me. But most of the time it makes me feel alive and free...

It's funny how time really flies so fast. It makes wonder how people lives the way they want to. Are they happy or sad? Or are they just living because they have to?

Cuz if I were to ask, I don't know the answer for that.

Every people we meet has a different story and a different battle they are facing or going through. So I choose to be kind. But not to those people who doesn't deserve my kindness.

You know, I also have my temper and feelings. After all, I'm a person, too.

Someone told me that the most powerful word is love. I know that word but I exactly don't know what's the real meaning of it. For the past eighteen years I've been living with darkness. Less lights. Less happiness. It's always rage and hatred.

Whenever I tell to other people my story they would pity me for having such a life. I was confused. They pity me? Why? I don't even pitied myself so why would they? Funny.

My life is not an adventure or something like they called fun. For me, it's a trauma. My life caused me a lot of unforgettable and traumatic experience. I may act okay most of the time but deep inside I feel terrible and scared.

But someone saved me. Someone cared about me... About us....

From being a prisoner in a place that I called home, I learned how to free myself and escape my biggest nightmares.

Forgiveness.

People will always say that I should learn on how to forgive those who caused me pain and unacceptable pain. No matter how big and small they did. I can't agree with them. Maybe they don't really know the whole thing the reason why they could say that.

I've already forgiven Elias a long time ago. Elias apologized to me before he got jailed. He also told me a lot of things including our family background some things...

Olivia was sentence to be jailed but because of her condition she got admitted on a Mental Health Hospital.

Am I satisfied with what she got? No. I'm not.

They said time heals everything. I'm not wishing that for me to happened. Life is full of surprises so I would just sit and wait everything to happened on its own. I'm not in a rush anyway.

I stared at my reflection on the big round mirror. I'm wearing a white robe. I just finished taking a shower. Small drops of water is dripping on my shoulder because of my wet hair. I feel refreshed.

I blow dried my hair and after that I go to the walked in closet and picked what to wear for tonight.

I choose a floral puff sleeve dress that was perfectly fit on my body. I decided to cut my long black hair till below my shoulder. I also apply light make-up, not like the other day, I choose not to put dark red lipstick. When I've get done I picked my small purse and walked out from my condo.

Rhysand texted me. He said they are at the rooftop now and waiting for me to arrive. After what happened they become my friends, I guess. 

It's been three years now since that happened and everytime I woke up it always feel surreal. I couldn't help but to reminiscence.

Theodore's business was named after me, Elias and Kelaya. The reason why I was capable of living a good life.

I entered the elevator. After a few seconds I arrived at the rooftop of the building. The first thing I saw is a large table with foods and some liquors.

I smiled.

Rhysand, Maevel, Aillard, Sawyer and Lorcán were standing and looking at the tall buildings and city lights. They didn't notice my arrival because they seemed enjoying the views and all.

Sawyer is the first one who noticed me. He said something to them that I didn't heard. They all looked at me. Rhysand wave at me so I did the same.

"Ang tagal mo!" saad ni Aillard nang makalapit sa akin.

Naupo ako at nakangiti na nilingon ang lalaki. "Just five minutes late," naupo na rin ang mga ito.

Aillard and Lorcán sit beside me. While Rhsyand, Sawyer and Maevel sit on the opposite side.

"Anong oras kayo aalis?" tanong ko sa gitna. ng pagkain namin.

"Grabe ka! Pinapaalis mo na kami?" si Rhysand.

"Just asking. Wait, akala ko ba you will grilled the meat?"

"Mamaya na iyon. Masarap 'yon kapag may beer." anas ni Maevel.

"Kamusta ang negosyo niyo, Lacuna?" tanong ni Sawyer. Tumingin ako dito.

"Hmm, fine. I'm still adjusting," I replied.

"Mabuti at hindi ka sobrang nahihirapan?" si Rhysand.

"May katulong naman ako kaya hindi naman. Now that you all graduated, anong plano niyo?"

"Syempre maghahanap kami ng trabaho at mag-a-apply," sagot ni Maevel.

"Buti nakapasa ka?" I joked.

"Sinuwerte," Maevel replied and laughed.

We continued talking, they all told me how they feel when they finished college. I'm happy for them. These people are the unexpected people I meet. I'm glad I became part of them.

Pansin ko ang kanina pang pananahimik ni Lorcán. Nilingon ko ang mga kasama. Si Rhysand at Maevel ay nag-iihaw ng karne. Si Sawyer at Rhysand ay tahimik na nag-uusap.

Lorcán is busy looking at the buildings while holding a glass of beer. I walked slowly towards him. Magka krus ang dalawang braso ko at tumingin na rin sa harap. Pareho kaming tahimik at parehong walang balak magsalita.

After a minutes Lorcán heaved a sighed and looked at me. "Are you happy?" he asked suddenly. Okay, that was unexpected.

"I guess I am," I paint a small smile.

Muli niyang nilingon ang magandang tanawin.

"But I don't know how to lived my life... By myself... I know its been three years but I still feel alone...."

"We are with you. You are not alone," he said with convincing tone.

"Yeah..."

"I'm with you," he said seriously.

My lips parted." Yeah, I-I know," I said and looked at him.

"Live your life and love yourself, Lacuna. Don't let hatred get all over you." he said without looking at me.

"Love," I echoed. "How can I love myself and live my life now.... when they shown me none," I looked away and sighed. "I don't even know what does it feel... So how can I?" I smiled without humor.

"I will teach you, Lacuna." he said.

I looked at him again. On my surprised, he was looking at me emotionally. "How?" I asked with pounding heart.

"But," he stopped from talking and take one step, making himself closer to me. "Let me love you first." he whispered. 

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This is the ending of A Missing Part. I hope you enjoyed reading as I enjoyed writing it. Thank so much for giving time reading this! This is the first story I've finished writing here on this platform. I'm grateful and feel satisfied. Thank you for reading!

I'm starting to write again a new story and new characters! See you in my next installment!