after knowing him before, i knew it was time to be close yet again, like from what was before. except this time, there was much of a difference. i forget exact dates now, but trust me months are important.
———June, 2020———
i like myself, i do. i mean i've always known i'm pretty. sometimes i try a little too hard for instagram but hey i think it's a normal thing. speaking of instagram, lots of my friends post on there often, but as much as i try to take pictures they never do sit right with me.
this year has genuinely been crazy. i quit dance, finally. as much as seven year old me wanted to pursue dancing into adulthood i can't do it anymore, i've grown apart from it. which is slightly scary to me. growing apart from things i once loved, of growing in general. still don't know which one scares me more.
with covid around this month starts summer. not that i hangout with that many people. but hey, first summer in a pandemic. definitely a historical moment for me. schools out now, even though it's technically been optional all may, so as soon as i'm not sick anymore i hope to see my best friend soon.
i had gone on snapchat to look at everyone's stories, all the basic 'happy summer' snaps and stories. my best friend had posted on her story! a lot of people had. she was at the beach, seemed fun. i bet it was relaxing. but instead i was sitting on my floor trying to eat mash potatoes. i had tapped on the next story, another one of my friends. she too was at the beach. another story of a friend, at the beach. yet another. the list went on and on. even my old friend too was there with them.
even though i knew i was sick and unable to go, something about not being invited made me slightly disappointed. i mean being sick had been awful, i couldn't see my dog, couldn't hangout with family OR friends, but i had still wished an invite. but it wasn't a big commotion mentally. not yet anyways.
as much as being sick had sucked, a few days later i had been better, feeling better, happier, less miserable and in no pain. it was great too because i caught up on hanging out with my dog as soon as possible. which was so fun. no one had hung out in a while either so it seemed as if it was just a one time thing, a 'schools out' type thing.
i had to move too, except i was just movie houses not states, thankfully.
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what once was
General Fictiona girl who doesn't find love, but finds hurt, disappointment and worry. who thinks she's becoming just who she's always wanted be, at an extent. after knowing him before, she knew it was time to be close yet again, like from what was before. except...
