what once was

August 2020, 2

i assumed everything was over with. everything was fine from the other night. that's what i thought. why..i have no clue. it doesn't make much sense either. for something that big to happen, whether i made it sound big or small, everyone dropping it seems odd to me now. but i guess it's just what i had wanted to happen. i wanted everyone to drop it. but for then, i was wrong. that night was just the beginning.

——August, 2020——

when i had assumed everything was over and ended, things had only gotten worse.
i was added to a group chat with the title being about three clown emojis. i had wondered what this group chat was for. maybe i was invited to hangout with everyone next time, maybe things will finally end up perfect!
i was under lots of stress minutes before but now, my life is solved! i'll hangout with everyone, i won't feel as alone or hurt-
blah blah blah. that's what had been going through my head. why would i have gotten myself so hyped up.
people started yelling. one message after another. about fifteen people in this group chat, no way it was an invitation to hangout. couldn't be.
they were all yelling yes, but it wasn't average yelling. they were pretty mad. mad at someone. that someone, was me.
when i had realized that my mood changed slightly.
it wasn't over yet, they were still on my neck. this time accusing me of reporting one of the girls tiktoks. such an odd thing. i had known that i never did it, but no matter how hard i tried to convince them i was just a liar that was a bad person.
it was awful. the night ruined me.
i thought everyone had figured out or heard what happened. but i guess i was wrong. on the twenty fifth of august was one for the books for sure. started out with my group of friends taking pictures in a sunflower field, then ended it off with the beach. that night was a thrill. although during the day i had a feeling someone didn't fully like me, not anyone i had been with that day, but someone i had started to be close with. it was almost like a gut feeling. but i didn't take notice of it.
the next day or so i had assumed it was just because of what happened the other night.
when i got into my parents car, i had went onto snapchat, just to respond to streaks. when i opened all of my snaps, someone's name seemed to be gone. almost as if he had just disappeared. i scrolled down to see if i was just left on opened, he was no where. two minutes later i had just given up. i reached the bottom of my recents. when doing so, i noticed another name gone.
i had remembered one of their usernames, so i tried searching him up. there he was! his bitmoji was there! i clicked on his profile to see what had happened, but when i did just that it said something like user not found. he was there, the profile. the profile was him, i don't get why snapchat was glitching. he un added me. he un added me. why would he un add me?