what once was

August, 2020

nothing could've prepared me for this month. as much as it was so fun, it was also scary. i mean i almost died, and at one point i just got so stressed with life. little did i know this month would change me forever.

——August, 2020———

august first was barely anything, but august second was adventure. me, my sister, brother and parents went to an amusement park. we go every year it's like tradition now. wake up early, drive two hours and boom have the best day ever.that night ended in a positive note too, everyone in the house was just too tired to do anything.
i started snapping an old guy friend too,
he's nice and pretty cool. i had known him in February but we had lost contact. he wasn't rude and if he was it was only jokes. he's become friends with all my friends now so maybe i'll see him before summer ends. he went to the beach on the last day of school too, so i had assumed that since they all became close.
my best friend and two other friends had gone on a boat together between them and six days later. i wasn't necessarily sad nor jealous, i had just wondered how fun it was.
but then six days later had came. it was so fun. my best friend picked me up, and we got onto her boat. spent the whole day together jumping off the boat going on adventures, and she even tried teaching me how to surf. on another note i a, cannot surf, and b, almost drowned in the process..waters rough.
me and her ended up having a sleep over and honestly one of the best days of last year. although i will say i did have to find out that those two days only happened because i couldn't go to the boat with the rest of them the few days before. and if you're wondering how i didn't know, i feel the same.
i'm not good at that stuff, it's kind of new to me. i've never reallyyy hung out with people before, because growing up i didn't really have friends 2020 has changed me. i'm who i've always wanted to be. a girl with friends, specifically the friends i had always wanted tooo be friends with. honestly this month has been so much fun!
between the twentieth to the twenty fifth my friends threw a party. it was a pool party. tapping through snap stories seeing everyone was pretty much there except for me. it hurt. i called my other best friend to ask if she had seen the party. she wanted to see what it looked like so i screenshot a story of it to send to her.
because of the many previous screenshots in the past , people started to call me out for it. an old friend, who had also been at this party, started sending me voice messages. stating how i'm always taking screenshots of her and other friends's stories when they're together. to my knowledge, she was at the party sending these messages in front of everyone. not only was i embarrassed, but i felt personally targeted. because i was. i had tried my hardest to defend myself and all of the sudden it was over. or so i had assumed.