Taint Me More ☑️

Chapter Eighteen

By the time I got back to the office after lunch with my father, I resumed work as usual. It felt good to finally reconnect with my father, I wished it had happened sooner but I was grateful it even happened at all.

I finally got a reply text from Brian asking if everything was alright. I texted him back, saying I just wanted to discuss something with him and I asked if he was free to discuss over a drink later by evening.

He didn't reply for a few minutes, then he gave me a call. 

I glanced around the office space before taking his call, "Brian, I'm at work. Let's talk later tonight" I said in a rush.

"Are you ending things with me, Aria?" He asked in a tight voice.

I didn't say anything, I just wondered if it was fair to do this over the phone.

"Look Aria, I'm in Boston right now for a shoot. It's alright if you tell me over the phone. I mean I won't be surprised if you wanna end things with me, I've always thought everything I had with you was too good to be true." His voice went low.

"Too good to be true? With me?" I breathed out a humourless laugh.

He was a tv star who could have any girl he wanted and with me was too good to be true for him?

"Why would you think like that Brian? I'm just an ordinary girl." I said in a low voice.

"No, you're not Aria" he chuckled, "you're completely different from what I'm used to and that's not ordinary. You're honest, warm, playful and witty. Most girls I've been with in the past were always all about my money, fame and body."

"Well, the body part, I don't blame them" I said before I could stop myself and he laughed.

"You see what I mean? You're so outspoken, yet soft and genuine. I like that about you but it's okay, I understand that good things will always come to an end" he passed on.

He didn't sound upset and I liked how simple the guy was. If all tv stars were like him, then I guessed the world would be a better place.

He sighed, "don't think I'll let you off that easy though. I'll still call you when I'm on set and send random selfies of me eating the great food they serve, and please save that drink for me, you owe me one for when I get back to New York." He said in a lighter tone and with a fake Italian accent, he said, "I wish you good fortune, Ciao mademoiselle "

I burst out laughing, "that's not how you say it, genius." I giggled, almost out of breath, "see you soon, Brian" I told him and ended the call.

I sat in my small cubicle and wondered if I made the right choice or if it was just Brian who accepted my choice better than he was supposed to. I knew we weren't exactly in a deep relationship, I mean we hadn't even slept together, which in a way I was really thankful about. He never even bothered me about that and that was why I respected him.

Or maybe I just felt like he deserved better. I was too damaged, a girl who was sleeping with her boss's husband to be, a girl who had secrets dirtier than the next person. Although I thought I'd left all my baggage back at Portland, but that wasn't the actual case. They followed me everywhere I went, dragging behind me like heavy rocks.

So no. Brian thought I was too good to be true but the truth was that he didn't know me well enough for that conclusion to be valid.

Now I knew I only had Aaron to tackle. Hopefully, he'd handle things as respectfully as Brian did. With Aaron's case, I knew I never should have slept with him, I knew I would have to live with that guilt for the rest of my life but acknowledging my wrongs was the first step. The next being confrontation.