PROMISES, emily prentiss

CHAPTER NINETEEN

September 26th
present day
Pennsylvania Hospital
3:40 A.M.

Emily sat in the hospital waiting room writing in her journal to herself, isolated from the others. She had a small black journal in her lap and her legs were bouncing softly as she wrote. Every few seconds she paused to look up and check the time on the big red clock, maybe to even see if the doctor had come to give them an update, which has yet to be the case. Her nails were ripped to shreds and practically bleeding into the paper as she wrote. Everyone on the team was a complete mess. They were all riddled with worry as they sat in the waiting room for their co worker.

Friend.

No. She's their family now. They were all sitting quietly as they waited for their family.

Aurora,

The second I saw you chained up from the ceiling in that cold and dark room. I knew one thing for certain; I never want to lose you. Now whether that be as a friend, or a coworker, or maybe even as something more. I don't want to lose you. And seeing you like that made me realize that I don't want to waste anymore time. I want to be with you. I want to kiss you. I want to hold your hand and I want to wake up every morning next to you and go to bed with you every night. I want to hold you in my arms when you're shaking of fear and whisper that everything is going to be okay. I want to read you books and have you fall asleep on my chest, listening to my heart beat. I want to scream Taylor Swift in the car with you. I want to be with you more than anything. I would do anything to be with you.

I've never felt this way before in my entire life, and I'd be lying if I said it didn't scare the shit out of me. I have never felt the way I feel for you for anyone else. I cant stop thinking about you.

And now i'm nervous that i've missed my chance forever. Maybe you really won't come back from this, and I can't help but to feel so fucking stupid, for taking this long to admit my feelings in the first place. We spent too much time harmlessly flirting with each other. So fucking stupid.

I want to be with you Aurora, and I hope you want to be with me too.

Because I cant go too long without thinking of your smile, that's my favorite thing about you. Or maybe it's the way your eyes light up when you talk about something you're passionate about, maybe that's my favorite. No, it's definitely when you first wake up in the morning and your eyes are still shut and your nose scrunches up all adorably. It could be when you're screaming songs at the top of your lungs or when your eyebrows scrunch up when you're focusing on a case. Or maybe your beautiful mind is my favorite, you're smarter than everyone i've ever known. No. My favorite is when you hold me. And when I'm holding you. Actually I don't have a favorite thing about you, you have to many perfect things for me to choose just one. But I do know you are my favorite person, and I have an insane amount of feelings for you. Probably too many. Definitely more than the socially acceptable amount.

I think the moment I got these feeling for you was the day we went to the library, and then when we went to the carnival. The way you had so many books you didn't know what to do with them, and when you named that stupid stuffed animal after me, I think my heart melted. Who am I kidding? I got these feelings the night you told me about your past. Knowing just that small piece of information made me realize that I want to know every piece of information. I want to know fucking everything about you Rory. No, I got these feelings the day you had that panic attack on the jets bathroom. Because that's when I realized you were so much more than just a pretty face, there was a story hiding behind your eyes, and I wanted you to tell it to me.

No. All of that is wrong. I got these feelings the moment I saw you. I'm not trying to be romantic or all ooey gooey lovey dovey. I'm just being real with you. The moment I saw you I knew you were not like anyone else I've ever met before, I knew that you were special.