my favorite girl

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"I don't like our fights," Nayeon says.

I nod against her shoulder. "Okay."

"Let's not ever fight again. Please, Moguri."

I nod again.

"Okay." I hugged her even tighter. "We won't." 

It was only after a few seconds when she decided to pull away.

I missed the warmth of her body immediately. The only contact left now was her hand squeezing mine.

"I was scared we'd never get to hang out again."

I ask, "Why so?"

"You've been spending a lot of your time with Mina lately. You've got none to spare for me."

That's not true. "That's not true, Nayeonie."

"It is! The only time we get to see each other now is whenever we'd walk to school together. Or home. In school, you avoid me."

I sighed. "I'm sorry. I just thought you'd wanna spend your time with your boyfriend–"

"Jackson's not my boyfriend."

I tilt my head to the side. "But you guys go out on dates together."

Nayeon seemed weary when she looked down and fidgeted with her fingers.

"I just didn't want him to... hate me. So I say yes whenever he asks."

It only caused my frown to deepen.

"That's not fair, Nayeon. Not to him, or to you. You should turn Jackson down if you really don't wanna go out with him."

"I know," Nayeon was still not looking up at me. "I just didn't want him to hate me." She parrots her earlier words, then adds, "I don't like it when people hate me."

I felt my heart clench at the sound of her small voice.

"You can't stop them from doing that sometimes. Besides, it doesn't matter, anyway, if they do hate you."

"It matters to me!"

"It doesn't have to, Nayeonie, okay? I'm here. I don't hate you." She finally looks at me, so I sent her a soft smile. "I could never hate you."

I watch her gulp before slowly scooting over towards me.

I didn't move away. I just let her.

"Really?" She asks, making sure.

I chuckled.

"Really," I reached over so I could hug her. She buried her face in my hair. "How could I ever hate you? You're my favorite girl, Nayeon."

I felt her stain my shirt with tears again, but I didn't move.

Instead, I held her closer to me, hugging her tighter when she replies,

"You're my favorite, too, Momo."