what kind of future

1 8 : c o m f o r t

Until one day, light shone in his eyes, waking him up from a terrible dream. He stared for a long time in his room.

It was messy.

There were piles of clothes everywhere. Bottles of alcohol and colas were present. His nightstands were filled with opened bags of chips and ants crawling on the floor. How could he live this way?

He went out to his living room to see the same mess from his room in there as well. His floor was dusty and messy. The sink was full of dirty dishes. His table was filled with empty takeout orders and the garbage can he has on the house was full. Seungkwan came out of nowhere from the laundry room with a basket in hand filled with dirty laundry.

"Jihoon," he called out. Hansol was there too with a black garbage bag in hand. Seungkwan suddenly hugged Jihoon tightly.

"Gosh, Ji," he said.

"You stink. Why don't you go take a shower first? Hansol cleaned the bathroom." Jihoon did as he was told and before going, Hansol hugged him as well, trying to comfort the depressed lad.

This was the first time in months he has seen his bathroom cleaned. Sure, Seungkwan used to slip into his apartment to clean from time to time, but he would be kicked out by the grumpy Jihoon who doesn't want anything to do with people. He'd be kicked out and screamed at, but Seungkwan didn't stop. He was always there. All his bathroom necessities were also replaced with new ones since it's been a month since he ran out of shampoo. Jihoon was too lazy to go down to the store to buy one that he just laid there in his bed or the sofa.

It felt nice to feel clean again, is what he thought. After taking a nice warm shower, Seungkwan handed him a clean pair of underwear and clothes, plus a lotion. He took it carefully from Seungkwan's hands and entered the bathroom again. The clothes smelled great, and the soft fabric of his clothes was back to feeling soft. He felt nice and clean after a nice shower.

He came out from the bathroom to see, not only Hansol and Seungkwan present in his apartment but also Seokmin, his next-door neighbor, cooking food for him.

Seokmin noticed Jihoon and smiled at him. They were close before, Jihoon remembered how Seokmin would be clingy to him whenever he invites him for a walk or a coffee before.

Seokmin cherishes him so much that Seokmin was devastated too after learning that Jihoon was left alone. Seokmin would make an attempt to bring him some homemade food every now and then, but he would see that Jihoon doesn't even open the door for that. Jihoon walks towards Seokmin and hugs him. This was the third human contact he had for this day, and he felt thankful for them. Seokmin hugged him back lovingly.

"Hey, Ji. Why don't you sit down for a moment while I cook us some food." Jihoon nodded at him sat to where Seungkwan was sitting. He hugged Seungkwan which startled him a little but hug back as well.

"We're here for you, Ji. We're always here for you." It made Jihoon cried once more when he heard that from Seungkwan.

Seungkwan comforts him again, shushing him to stop crying from time to time. It hurts him to be alone in this world. 

When Seungcheol left him it's as if everything doesn't even matter anymore. It hurts him so much that he has forgotten those people who cared for him and now this is what he needs. Just people being there for him.