My Life Before You

Chapter 2

Bucky's POV

"Oh gods! Are you okay?! Did something go wrong with the mission? How's Sam? When will you-"

"Y/n, y/n, slow down. I'm fine, Sam's fine and the mission? Well, it could be going better", I spoke as I tried to calm her down.

During missions I rarely talked to, y/n. I didn't want to take the chance of anyone tracing my calls back to her. So while i'm out during these assignments she doesn't have any idea if i'm alive and I hate putting her in the dark like that, but it's for her safety. I'm already risking so much calling her right now.

I've just been going from mission to mission and when I'm not on missions I just never have any time to be with her. I had to hear her voice, even if it's just for a few minutes.

"Oh...okay. Jeez, Bucky! Don't scare me like that!", she shouts at me.

I chuckle at myself. "I'm sorry. It won't happen again".

"Good, now why did you call me? Not that I mind. I love when you call me", she says.

"I just wanted to hear your voice is all. I miss you so much, y/n", I said quietly.

"Awe, I miss you too, baby, but don't worry. You'll finish this mission soon and be back home before you know it". She always knew how to look on the bright side of things.

Before I could answer back my phone dings indicating I got a message.

I look at my screen to see who it's from.

Sam: "Hey man. We lost track of the guy. Turns out his next deal isn't until a few weeks. Looks like the mission will be at least a month longer.

I groan at the text, not only am I pissed about having to stay longer, y/n isn't gonna be very happy about it.

"Bucky? You still there?", she asked. "Yeah, I am. Sorry, doll, but I have some bad news", I stand up from my bed and sit at the chair by my the desk.

"Well, whatever it is i'm sure we can work it out together".

"It's about my mission. Apparently it's gonna last for another month...",

"Another month?! No, no, Bucky! I barely see you for a couple weeks until you're off on some other mission and even then you're busy doing other work. I'm sorry, but I will not spend a whole month away from you. Come home now!", she demanded.

"Doll...you know I can't do that. I have to finish what I started", I say softly. I wish I didn't have to do this to her, but I have no choice.

I sit there waiting for her to say something, but she doesn't. People usually yell to get any anger they have out, but not her. y/n, was always one to keep her anger in. Even though I tell her it's better to just let it all out.

I lean back in my chair and look at my desk. Sitting on it is a small black box. I grab the box and open it. I stare at the engagement ring sitting inside it.

The ring had a silver band with a small, but not too small, diamond sitting in the middle of it. It was simple, but that's what y/n loved. Simple, easy, normal, I think the reason why is because her life is everything, but simple, easy or normal. All because of me...

I have been trying to propose to y/n for weeks, but never had the time to do it. What if I just proposed now? It's not the most romantic thing ever, but I just want to be engaged to her already. I want to be tied to her for the rest of my life. I want to be her's and her's only.

I stand up quick and start to speak in a fast pace. "Y/n, I know you're mad at me, but let's just put that aside for 5 minutes okay?".

"Why?", her voice laced with curiosity.