My Life Before You

Chapter 26

3rd Person POV

Bucky sat silently as he stared at y/n. She was still just as beautiful. She didn't look like she aged at all. Must be a god thing, he though. It reminded him how different their worlds are.

Bucky's mind was completely trashed as he tried to figure out why this was happening. Why must his life be so difficult? Will he ever catch a break?

He falls off a train, is enslaved by hydra, almost kills all his friends multiple times, lost his best friend once more, then the love of his life, and now she's back and alive.

Why does it have to be like this? It's not fair. Tons of people are living their lives happy with not a single weight of responsibility on their shoulders. Never were they tortured, broken, or trapped. No, they're happy and loved. Why can't Bucky have that? Who is refusing him from such happiness?

Y/n looked at Bucky with worry in her eyes. She was too scared to speak, but she knew she had to. Bucky would never start the conversation. So she did and she spoke softly. Her voice barely coming out as a whisper. "You need to let me go"

Bucky continued to stare at her. Already she's trying to leave him. "How?"

"How what?"

Bucky stood up. "Don't act stupid, y/n! How are you alive!". Y/n looked away. Her guilt was so suffocating right now that she couldn't even stand to look at him. "I'm sorry"

"I don't want an apology! I want to known why you're not dead!", Bucky snapped.

Y/n let out a soft sigh. "It was Loki". Bucky paused at her response. "He figured out a way to fake my death. I'm not sure how since he never told me the full truth, but...", y/n looked up at Bucky and he was staring at her so intently.

Being so close to him was dangerous. Just looking into his eyes old feelings were rushing back to her, though they never really left. His eyes looked so much older now. His face...he looks so tired. He had also grown out his hair. It was back to it's shoulder length and his beard was now full. All she wanted to do was break free of this cell and hug him and never let go.

She held back the urge and continued. "For 6 months he kept me imprisoned. He tortured me, but never enough to kill me. It was hard, but I was finally able to escape. I left and went to earth to hide once more"

Bucky walked closer. "Why didn't you come to me?"

"Because that's the first place Loki would have looked. I knew that if I went anywhere near you he would capture me once more and kill you. So I decided to stay away"

Bucky stood not moving an inch. For some reason he was still so angry. She was so close to him all these years. Had she seen how much he's been suffering? Did she just not care?

Bucky slammed his left arm onto the cell. Y/n flinched at the action. "All this time I was crying over you. I blamed myself for your death", his eyes filled with tears once more. Y/n sat up with a look of worry. "and to think you were alive"

"Bucky-"

"I was literally dying without you! I had to wake up every single day with this crippling guilt! I never felt like I could truly live, again!", Bucky pulled at the collar of shirt from frustration. "YOU COULD'VE FIGURED OUT SOME WAY TO CONTACT ME!"

Y/n stood up abruptly. "YOU THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO'S SUFFERED ALL THESE YEARS?! I lost my freedom! I wake up everyday in fear! My heart aches when I see you on TV! I had to fight myself to stay away every! single! day! You don't know how many times I broke down because you were just a few blocks away from me! How I felt knowing i'd never feel your touch again!"

"That doesn't matter! I would've protected you from him!"

Y/n walked closer towards Bucky. "No, you wouldn't! He is a god! You're just a human! You would've never been able to protect me! I stayed away to protect you!"

"You weren't protecting me. You were killing me", Bucky said in a monotone voice. Y/n's stepped back a bit. "Let. me. out.", she said in a vicious tone.

All this time all she wanted was to be back with Bucky and now that she is he hates her. She had dreams about this moment. Never did it go like this. No, Bucky ran towards her with open arms and tears of joy. How childish of her to dream of something like that.

Bucky ignored what she said and went to leave. Y/n screamed out to him, banging on the glass. "LET ME GO! I have to get back home! They're waiting for me! I need to make sure they're safe!"

Bucky stopped in his tracks before turning around. "They?", he asked. Y/n said nothing and looked away. Suddenly a flip switched in Bucky's brain. "Y/n...", he said as he walked back to her cell. "What happened to the baby?"

Y/n looked up with tears in her eyes. "I've never been gone this long. Please...", she begged. "...Let me go home"

"I need you to answer my question. What happened to the baby?", Bucky asked once more. A tear slide down y/n's cheek. "They're okay. They survived. It was hard, but I kept them a secret from Loki while I was imprisoned by him-"

Bucky did a stop motion to get her to stop talking. "Why do you keep saying they?"

Y/n didn't want to speak any further. She knew telling him about them would have horrible consequences, but she did so anyways. If she didn't Bucky wouldn't allow her to leave until she answered his question. "The baby turned out to be twins..."

Bucky's breath hitched. Not only is y/n alive, but now is his child...both of them. His mind was racing and his breathing was heavy. "Twins?", his voice broke.

She nodded. "Both boys. The youngest is named Maximoff Romanov Barnes. Though we usually just call him Max", y/n turned to the security camera in the top corner of the room. "I know you're there, Wanda"

Wanda flinched from hearing her name. She watched y/n look at her through the camera. "I wanted to name one of my sons after 2 very important people in life. If it weren't for you and Natasha I would've never gotten my beautiful boys. It's a bit of a weird name, but I like it", y/n smiled.

Wanda slightly chuckled from the other room. She was holding back tears, but knew that they were going to fall at some point.

Y/n put her attention back to Bucky. "And the oldest...James Grant Barnes. I wanted to name him after the love of my life"

Bucky looked at y/n. His eyes were full of love. "Grant...?"

"I know how important Steve was to you. Besides I think it goes really well together", y/n smiled once more. Though you could see the pain she was covering.

"I want to see them", Bucky said quickly. "W-wait", y/n stuttered. "I don't think that's a good idea"

Bucky's eyes changed and anger filled them once more. "I'm going to see them. You've kept them away from me long enough"

"Bucky you have to understand the danger you'd be putting them in! If Loki saw us together-"

"I'll protect you. I know you might think I can't, but I will. I will protect you and our sons even if it kills me", Bucky's tone was serious and his face was dark and scary.

Y/n's heart skipped a beat when he said "our sons". She needed to push past these feelings. As much as she'd love to be back with Bucky, fate wouldn't allow it. They were destined to never be together. If they were they'd surely die. Y/n wouldn't allow that to happen. She wanted Bucky to stay away, but knew she couldn't stop him.

"Okay", she said. "but we do this on my terms". Bucky nodded with agreement.

He turned to the metal door and immediately it opened. "Let her out", Bucky ordered.
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Twins?! Such a cliche wattpad thing to do 🙄