Y/n's POV
I scrunched my nose when I could feel something tickle it. Turning my head the other way I cuddled back into my soft bed. A pair of arms wrapped around my waist and there was a soft sigh. Wait...since when does my bed have arms? I could hear little giggling sounds that I knew belonged to the boys.
Lifting my head I turned to see what I was lying on. My eyes widened at the sight of Bucky. Shit! When did I even fall asleep?!
Bucky's arms were tightly wrapped on my waist, I could barely move. The twins sat on the floor to the right of us. I tried to wiggle free, but his grip got tighter. I forgot how strong he is.
I slowly leaned my body to the edge. At some point I lost my balance and started to fall back. I reached out clawing at his arms not to fall, but it was too late. I was going to roll off and I was taking him with me.
"Buck!", I shouted frantically causing him to wake up. His stirring sped up the process and we rolled right onto the floor. My body slamming into the ground with his on top. James and Max bursted out laughing. I groaned from the pain. I looked up to Bucky's face a bit closer than I wanted. "Good morning", he smiled. His voice was deep and raspy. I forgot how hot his morning voice is. "G-good morning". We continued to stare at each other. Neither one of us wanting to look away.
"Mama...", I heard a little whisper to my left. I whipped my head to see the boys watching us. Quickly I pushed Bucky off me and stood up dusting myself. I cleared my throat. "Come on, boys. Let's get you ready for the day". I walked out the room and headed towards theirs. There little footsteps could be heard as they followed behind.
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I sat crisscross on the twins' floor with James standing in front of me. I gently pulled James's black shirt over his head. As I finished helping put on his outfit for the day my mind started to wander off.
I thought back to how it felt with Bucky's arms around me. I've missed his touch so much. After years and years being so vigilant for the boys and mine safety I finally felt at peace.
"Mama, you can let me go now", James said knocking me from my thoughts. Looking down I could see my hands still holding the hem of his shirt. I quickly let go. "Sorry, baby. Mama got distracted"
Suddenly Max threw himself on my back. "Gotcha mom!", he shouted in my ear. "Oh, really", I smirked. He gave me a quick "yup" while popping the "p"
Slowly I slid my arms to his side and attacked him with tickles. He began to laugh hysterically. "My turn! My turn!", James shouted as he jumped onto my lap. Using both my hands I tickled them. Their laughs filled the air.
For years I never really new what happiness sounded like. That was until I heard them laugh for the first time. Knowing I could make them laugh and give them a happy life filled me with such joy.
"Ahem", I hear someone clear their throat. I look to see Bucky leaning on the doorway. He had a tight black shirt on that show cased every inch of his muscles. His triceps were literally bursting from his sleeves. Just the sight of him had me weak in my knees. He raised his eyebrow. I slightly blushed knowing he caught me staring. "Did you tell them?", he asked breaking the silence.
"Um, no, I haven't"
Both boys stood up. "Tell us what?", Max said excitedly. I let out a quiet sigh. "We're gonna live with daddy from now on"
Instantly both started to jump with joy. "We're gonna live with daddy!", they chanted. Bucky and I snickered at their reactions. "That's not all", Bucky smiled. "What?", they said simultaneously with excitement. "You get to finally meet Aunt Wanda and Uncle Sam"
Again they jumped with excitement. I quickly told them to stop jumping so they wouldn't bother the neighbors downstairs.
"Okay, let's start packing our things", I jumped up from my spot on the ground. They ran around the room stuffing things into their bags. Bucky walked into the room and grabbed both boys mid run. He picked them up with such ease. My eyes slightly widened forgetting he had super strength. "You don't need to pack", he said as he walked over to me with the twins in each arm. I furrowed my eyebrows. "Why not?"
"I'll have some of our men come down and bring it to the compound", he explained.
"I don't know, Bucky"
As sweet as his gesture was it'd bring too much attention. What if Loki is still watching? What will he think with all those men bringing in our stuff?"Y/n?", Bucky slightly shook me. "You're over thinking too much. Just calm down, okay...?", he spoke so gently that my worries instantly washed away.
"Yeah, mama! Daddy's gonna protect us from the mean man cause he's so strong!", Max shouted as he flexed his muscles on his arms that are non existent. Bucky laughed. "Very strong!", he threw both boys in the air and caught them simultaneously. The three of them laughed together.
I smiled at how similar their laughs were. Anyone could tell that Bucky was their father. They're complete copies of him. I always knew he was going to be an amazing father. They've only met hours ago and it feels like he's been here from the very beginning.
"Come here!", I laughed as I grabbed James from Bucky's arms. Bucky looked up at me with the biggest smile ever. We stood shoulder to shoulder. The boys began to play fight in our arms while we focused on each other. Slowly I could see Bucky start to lean in. Without thinking my body began to do the same. Just as our lips were about to touch I quickly pulled back. I could see the hurt in his eyes, but I just couldn't do it. What if Loki finds us again and finally gets his revenge on me? I don't want to be that cause of his pain, again.
I cleared my throat. "Um, w-we should start heading out". I grabbed Max and set both boys on the ground. "Come on, James. Let's put your hair up real quick"
James and Max ran to the bathroom and I followed behind. I went to turn the corner, but was stopped when I felt someone grab my wrist. I turned to see Bucky. "Y/n-"
"Now's not the time", I said interrupting him. The boys were so excited right now. I didn't want to ruin it with an argument that was waiting to happen. He was very reluctant, but he let my wrist go. Allowing me to finally leave.
Walking into the bathroom James was already standing on the step stool in front of the sink while Max sat in the bathtub playing with the soap bottles like action figures.
Turning on the faucet I wet James's hair. "Half up or all up?"
He tapped his chin for a moment like he was thinking. "Hm, I don't know. Max!", he shouted very loudly even though he was just a foot away. "What?!", Max shouted back at the same level. He stepped out the tub to us. "How should I do my hair?", he asked.
"Shave it", Max quickly said before walking back to the tub and continued to play. James huffed and crossed his arms. "No!"
I laughed at their little argument. "Half up". All three of us whipped our heads to the door way. Bucky stood quietly as we all continued staring. "Half up is better because it'll keep your hair out of your face, but protect your neck from the sun so you won't get a sunburn"
James turned back to the mirror. "Half up!", he declared. "Alright", I agreed. I started to put his hair up, but he jerked his head forward causing me to drop all his hair. "I want dad to do it!"
"Okay, okay", I moved out the way and gestured Bucky to stand behind James. My eyes widened at how fast Bucky was able to put his hair up. He noticed my reaction and smirked. "I used do this with my hair all the time. I've gotten pretty good with it"
I made an "o" shape with my mouth. I forgot that he used to have long hair.After we got a few things together that the boys grabbed a few things they would need while we waited for the rest of our stuff to arrive at the compound. We put on some hoods and walked to the compound.
The closer we got the more my heart started to pound. Bucky was hard to confront, but now I have to confront Sam and...Wanda. Gods I feel like throwing up.
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