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Chapter 16

It was currently lunch. I stood in line behind Kaide, Jungkook had already gotten his food and sat in his usual spot, the table in the far back. I didn't like the options for lunch, but I know Jungkook would want me to eat meat and veggies or fruits instead of just vanilla pudding.

I grabbed some pork and some cooked carrots and broccoli and of course banana pudding. I followed behind Max and Kaide as they headed over to Jungkook's table. They sat next to each other and I awkwardly sat down in the seat next to Jungkook. I saw him glance at my plate of food from the corner of my eye and smile.

"Hey, can I sit?" Justin asked with a chair in his hand. "Sure," I scooted closer to Jungkook to make room for him. I looked down at Jungkook's plate to see just banana pudding.

"Hey, you should eat some meat and veggies," I said to him. "Nah, I just want banana pudding," he said as he grabbed his pudding. I quickly took it from him and set it to the side of me, farthest away from him. He pouted, "I want it," he whined trying to reach over me.

"Nope, eat some of this first," I pushed my tray towards him and handed him a fork. He glared at me before eating some meat and veggies, "Okay, pudding time," he put his hands out and smiled. "Fine," I rolled my eyes and gave his pudding back. He immediately started eating his pudding which made me chuckle.

I patted his head before grabbing my tray and eating the rest of the meat and veggies before eating my pudding. I looked at Kaide, Max and Justin who hadn't said a word the entire time. Kaide smirked and raised his brows at me and looked back and forth between Jungkook and I. I blushed and glared at him. "You guys gonna talk?" I asked, referring to Max, Kaide and Justin.

"You guys are fun to watch," Max rested his head on his hand as he stared at Jungkook and I. Jungkook looked up with banana pudding in his mouth and looked at Max confused. He looked over at me and back at Max, "We gonna talk or just sit here awkwardly?" Jungkook asked.

"So, Jungkook how's sharing a room with DJ?" Kaide asked, breaking the awkward slience. I looked at Jungkook, waiting for his answer. "He's lowkey annoying, he rants way too much," Jungkook sighed. "Why don't you move back in with Y/N?" Kaide asked. "I already moved my stuff into DJ's, I don't have the energy to move back to my old bed." Jungkook explained.

"We can help you," Justin finally spoke. Jungkook glanced at me and at Justin, "Okay." he nodded. I smiled internally and mouthed a thank you to Justin. "So Y/N, do you want Jungkook to move back in with you, or someone else like me maybe?" Justin asked as he stared at me.

I raised my head and answered, "Jungkook can," I responded. I looked down at my plate and finished my pudding before getting up and cleaning my tray. I walked up to Becca and talked with her, to embarrassed to sit back down at the table.

Jungkook cleaned his tray a few minutes later and walked up to Becca as well. "Becca, can I move back into Y/N's room?" he asked as I stood there, frozen. Becca sighed, "This will be the last time you move rooms, are you sure?" Becca asked. "Yes, I'm sure," Jungkook responded without thinking. "Okay, we can move when we get back to the unit," Becca said. Jungkook nodded and turned towards me and smiled before walking back to the table in the back.

I followed him with my eyes and stared at him, scanning his features. His hair that I wanted to play with so bad and his pretty doe eyes that makes him look like bambi. Before I could finish looking at him, he looked up at me and furrowed his brows. I smiled and looked down at the ground.

"Okay guys, 10 more minutes." Becca announced. I looked up at the clock, surprised how slow this lunch was passing. I glanced at the table in the back to see everyone but Jungkook sitting at the table. I looked around the cafeteria, trying to find him.

"Rawr," I heard from behind me and jumped. I looked to see Jungkook, "you're mean," I pouted. "You like it though," he smiled. I cracked a small smile, happy that Jungkook was back to himself again.

I stopped laughing and said, "I'm really sorry for what I said this morning. I didn't mean it at all, I was happy the entire time and you actually were there for me when noone else was. Yeah Justin is cool and all, but so are you and you are different from a lot of people, you actually know how to comfort a person. I'm happy you are her-" before I could finish Jungkook pulled me into a hug. I smiled into his chest and hugged him back.

"It's okay," he rubbed my back. "Friends?" he asked as he pulled away from the hug. I nodded, "of course." I smiled at him.

As we walked back to the unit, out of nowhere some of my worst memories came to my mind. I tried shaking them off and walked into the unit. I walked to the group room since a new therapist was in there already.

I sat on the ground while hugging my knees tightly and clenching my eyes shut to calm me down.

"Hey, you okay?" I heard from next to me. I opened my eyes and looked next to me to see Kaide. "Yeah," I smiled to him sweetly. The rest of the kids, slowly came into the room at their own pace and sat in random places. I was on the floor with just Kaide as everyone else sat in seats since there were enough for everyone but me and Kaide.

Today, we were doing music for our therapy. I couldn't focus the entire time and kept spacing out.

I didn't even know when the therapy session had ended and half the people had already walked out of the room.

Kaide ligthly tapped my shoulder, gaining my attention. I turned towards him confused before looking around the room to see that everyone was gone except for Kaide and I.

"Hey, what's wrong?" he asked concerned. "Memories won't go away," I looked down at the ground and fiddled with my hands. He patted my shoulder to try and comfort me. I looked up at him before saying, "Where's Jungkook?" he smiled in response. He's in the dayroom, I'll go get him. He smiled sweetly to me before getting up and leaving the room.

I scooted towards a corner of the room with chairs surrounding me. Once I heard the door open, I dug my face into my knees. As much as I wanted comfort, I'm always shy to ask someone for comfort.

I heard a chuckle, "Kaide said you needed me." I heard his voice. After not hearing anything from me he sighed before saying, "If you don't want me here, I can leave." he said. I could hear his footsteps slowly fading away from me.

I immediately got up and ran up to him, backhugging him to make sure he didn't move. He removed my hands and turned to face me. He walked over to the spot I was in before and made room for me.

"Come here," he patted the spaced next to him. I slowly sat down next to him and rested my head against his shoulder. "Do you want to talk about anything?" he asked, interrupting the silence. I shook my head against his shoulder as a no.

"Tell me what you need from me right now," he said. I lifted my head and looked at him, as he looked back at me. He studied my face before opening his arms, I smiled as he knew I needed a hug. I crawled onto his lap and hugged him tightly.

He hugged me back and slowly rubbed my back. I dug my face into his neck and smelled the sweet scent of him.

You know, I am quite weird. At first I loved him, then hated him and now I might like him again? I'm not sure, but it was a weird feeling. Not an uncomfortable feeling, but a comfortable feeling, feeling right at home I should say.

I smiled into his neck as I thought about what I felt for him. He pushed me back, so I was away from his torso but still on his lap. He looked at me in shock which confused me.

"Did you just kiss my neck?" he asked, with his eyes wide. I still had my eyebrows crashed together in confusion. And that's when it hit me, I JUST FUCKING KISSED HIS NECK.

I immediately blushed and looked down at my hands. "I'm sorry," I said quietly. He chuckled before raising my chin to look at me. He smiled sweetly before pulling my face close to his. I froze, not knowing what he was going to do.

He turned my face and quickly pecked my cheek. He put my face back to facing him and leaned against the wall as he stared into my eyes.

"You're so beautiful," he said, lost in my eyes. I covered my now reddened cheeks and smiled. "T-thank you," I responded.