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Chapter 19

Present...

Well, I'm in highschool now. Middle school I was way to affectionate especially with relationships I was in, they moved way to fast. What cringe I was am I right? Like ew. Anyways, Jungkook and I are broken up and have been for 3-4 years by now. It's been very awkward cause we do go to the same school, but I've gotten lucky and haven't had any classes with him and have barely seen him in the hallways. I am happy about that, because otherwise it would've been very very awkward.

My mental health has gotten a bit better since middle school. It's slowly moving, you know it takes time. I've been to two mental hospitals now and I don't talk with anyone from either of those hospitals anymore. I do have their phone numbers, we just drifted away from each other.

Since the beginning of highschool, I've met many new people and now have very close friends. My brothers of course, Taehyung the one obsessed with Yeontan his dog and brings Yeontan everywhere and I mean everywhere with him. Then, there is Seokjin, my other brother who is obsessed with how handsome and beautiful he is. Which I understand because he truly is the sibling who got all the good looks. Then, I found out my cousin goes to the same highschool too which is Namjoon. Namjoon destroys basically everything he comes in contact with so we always have to be careful and ready for something to hit us when our group is walking down the hallway. Namjoon does have a wonderful personality though, he's the kindest person I've ever met and gives the warmest hugs when someone needs comfort. The last one in the group is Hoseok. So yeah, it's four boys and me the only girl in the friend group. Hoseok is also very kind and very chill and layed back, unlike Taehyung. I'd say he tames Taehyung when Tae gets out of control, which is at least once a day. But, he is also the funny one of the group and the best dancer FOR SURE. So yeah, that's my friend group and then there is me, the only mentally unstable one who just stares blankly at them and gives them a lot of advice about girls of course because I am one and do know a lot about them.

Jungkook POV

Yay highschool. Don't know if you can tell I'm being sarcastic, but I am being VERY sarcastic. So, I'm not with Y/N anymore, we are broken up for the second time. Believe it or not, I haven't dated another girl since we broke up. No girl can really replace her and I regret every bad thing I truly did to her.

I know she needs space from me, so past few years I've been avoiding her. Not because I'm afraid of facing her, but because I feel she's afraid to face me. The whole break up was bad, I shouldn't have yelled at her. In the end, I lost the person who taught me that life is worth living.

Good thing is I have Jimin and Yoongi. Jimin and Yoongi basically spy on Y/N and tell me how she is each day. Although I've been wanting to talk to her, I don't think she is ready. So, until then Yoongi and Jimin will watch her for me. As creepy as it sounds, it's just at school, they don't follow her home or anything. I didn't give them her address, I do know her address but I don't spy on her when she's in her house. Okay, that might be a lie. I do, but rarely it's like a once a month thing.

Most people call me the school bad boy, but I'm really not. I'm not a bad boy or a playboy which is another name some people call me. I'm popular because of Yoongi and Jimin, I mean sure I was before, but that was before I was hospitalized 14 times. After my last hospitalization, a month ago, I've been very down and antisocial. I have been ever since my first hospitalization, but it's progressively gotten worse over the years and hospitalizations.

Well, today is the first day of sophomore year, looking through all my classes I sighed. First period was math, but hey at least I get it over with first. I end with my favorite elective, wood work, so I'm happy about that.

As I wandered to the first classroom, the bell rang. I immediately began to sweat and was stressed about trying to make it to my class, but I'm already late!!

I sped walked to math class and eventually found it 5 minutes after the bell rang.

I walked in the room panting heavily and that's when I saw her.

The most beautiful woman in the world. Her hair perfectly shaped with her bangs in her eyes, her little doe eyes.

"Mr. Jeon?" the teacher said for the 4th time. I finally looked at the teacher and said, "sorry I'm late." I bowed and grabbed the only open seat, in the far back. Y/N sat near the front, her usual spot in her classes.

Y/N POV

When I saw him walk through the door, my body stiffened. My mind went blank as I tried avoiding looking at him. Even after our terrible break up, he still has the effect on me like we are still together. I mean sure, I still have some feelings for him, but haven't seen him in years. I have to admit it was nice to see him, he looked quite good and healthy.

The teacher took attendence and went on with class. Even though it is the first day of school, Mr. San assigned homework. Even worse, partner homework.

I am terrible at math and the last thing I want to do is partner up with someone and not know anything at all. After every year of school, I always forget everything I was taught.

"Can we pick our partners?" A girl in the back asked. "No, you are assigned partners, but don't worry you'll be with everyone in a project by the end of the school year." Mr. San explained.

"Okay, without further ado, I'll tell you your partners." Mr. San sighed. "First group is Hoseok and Malaki, second group Y/N and Jungkook, third group Jennie and Kylo..." my mind went blank after I heard him say I was partners with Jungkook.

"Alright, you'll be sitting next to your partner for the next week. So, find your partner and sit next to them." Mr. San directed. I sighed and turned around to see Jungkook already looking at me.

I was interupted by Mr. San's voice, "Y/N why don't you move to the back, there is an open seat next to Jungkook since Kylo moved to the front," Mr. San said. I nodded to him before grabbing my things and sauntering over to the desk to the right of Jungkook's.

Jungkook and I both sat there in silence, not daring to spare a glance at one another. Just focused on the ground or the wood pattern of the desk.

Mr. San chuckled, which gained my attention. I rose my head and furrowed my brows, confused. "Do you two need help with introductions?" Mr. San asked. And that's when I finally looked over at Jungkook.

"No, we already know each other," I looked back at Mr. San. He nodded before walking back towards his desk. I turned my body towards Jungkook, knowing if we didn't talk Mr. San would make us listening to us talk.

"Might as well talk without someone eavesdropping the conversation," I said, referring to Mr. San.

"What should we talk about then?" Jungkook finally rose his head and looked into my eyes with his sparkling doe eyes.

"I don't know, just anything really." I shrugged. "Uhm well how have you been? It's been a while," he said.

"I've been alright and yeah it's been long. How have you been?" I asked. "I'm alright, you know slowly working my way through life and highschool," he explained. "Same here, it's some tough shit man." I said, making him chuckle.

We talked for the remainder of math class, just catching up with each other. It's almost like the break up never happened and we are friends again.