You're an idiot // Winterfalcon

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"Sam?" A familiar voice said.

"Sarah?" I said confused getting up and opening the door quickly. My sisters face stared back at me smiling.

"Hey!" I said surprised hugging her. She laughed.

"Can I come in?"

"Uh sure!" I said stepping aside. I shut the door turning back around. Sarah stood there crossing her arms.

"Any cameras in here?" She asked and I frowned.

"Yes why..."

"Cover them."

"Fine." I walked over to the "secret" camera Tony thought he hid from me but I'd seen it when I first moved in. He's not a peeve he just puts cameras in the room in case something happens but I was fine to cover them for privacy when I need to. I draped the usual t-shirt over over the camera.

"What is so- OW!" As I turned around Sarah flicked me on the forehead.

"What was that for!"

"Samuel Thomas Wilson why am I getting a call at 7am telling me that my brother is locking himself in his room and won't let anyone in!"

"What the fuck why are people so dramatic." I said moving past Sarah and sitting back down on my bed.

"Well explain to me what happened! And why is your room a mess!"

"I haven't had time to clean it Jeez!" I said picking up some clothes and throwing them under the bed. Sarah's expression softened and she walked over sitting down next to me.

"This isn't like you Sam." She said and that was the last straw.

"What is it with people telling me who I am! So what if I don't clean my room! So what if I'm gay! So what if I wanna call my best friend a bitch and throw darts at a wall because I'm pissed!" I ranted waving my arms about.

"You finished?" Sarah said raising an eyebrow.

"Yes..."

"Well then how about you tell me what started this." I told her I everything, she just sat there taking everything in until I was done and sighed.

"You know this is an incident of you own making don't you?" She said and I rolled my eyes.

"Thanks for making me feel better!"

"You know what I mean, you know this isn't anyone else's fault."

"Yeah I know that." I sighed.

"I'm not justifying the actions of Bucky, Natasha or the rest of your friends but this all started because you slept with him."

"In my defence he came onto me."

"You still did it." Sarah said and I sighed.

"I know..."

"Sam you have to be more careful. If that was a girl you have no idea what could've happened!"

"Oh my god! Sarah I'm a gay man for one and Nat and Wanda are the only two girls in this tower and they are like sisters to me anyway!"

"I know it's just-"

"It's not like I'm gonna knock some girl up from the street! Why do you think so little of me! Not everyone's life goes smooth sailing from when their born!"

"Are you saying mine did?" Sarah said shocked.

"Of course not because I know how much you've had to struggle with these past few years. It's just... I know this isn't like me and that's the point. I've made a mistake that I can't take back and it's haunting me! And my so called friends aren't making it any easier to move on I must say."

"I get it Sam, I get that you hate feeling hopeless. But it gets better. You just need to try and get over Bucky."

"It's not that easy..." I sighed.

"I thought it was just a drunk hookup?"

"Yet it was the most sober thing I did that night Sarah. It didn't just feel like a hookup it was different. And as much as I want to forget it and move on everything I do just reminds me of him! Even when I'm mad at him I find a silver cufflink on the floor! When I try and watch a film at night when I can't sleep he's there!"

"It seems like you want more than just a hookup Sam."

"Maybe so... but it doesn't change the fact that he got nothing from the situation, I got it all."

Sarah left after a while. I promised to go down and apologise to Natasha at some point. There was no point me staying up here any longer so I went down. Everyone was sat in the living room as I walked over slowly.

"Nat can I talk to you for a moment." I said avoiding Bucky's eyes. All the anger had gone towards him after I'd talked to Sarah, I just felt awkward now.

"Sure." Nat replied getting up. We walked into the storage room down the corridor and I shut the door behind us.

"You've not brought me in here to kill me have you?" She joked and I smiled.

"No, I just wanted to apologise for before. I was just pissed and took it out on you. I'm sorry."

"You don't need to apologise, you had valid reasons for being upset Sam. I'm the one who's sorry."

"So we cool?" I said and Nat laughed.

"Of course." She hugged me right and I smiled.

"Now," I said as we left the room and went back into the corridor, "You called Sarah? Really!"

"Hey she's the only person that I know that's scarier than you when she's angry! And I've met a lot of angry people in my lifetime, I knew she'd get through to you."

"Yeah she is scary I'll tell you that." I said laughing, Natasha did too as we joined everyone else again.

"You guys sorted?" Tony asked and we both nodded.

"Great because we have a mission."