You're an idiot // Winterfalcon

12

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(2 months)

I was bored and Bucky was in the gym so I decided to try and figure out a way to pass the time which unfortunately is not something I'm good at.

"Hey Wanda." I said walking into the kitchen. She was in their a lot.

"Hey Sam, you alright?"

"Yep just bored you?"

"I'm about to do some painting if you would like to join me?"

"That sounds like exactly the think I need right now!" I said and she smiled.

"Follow me then!" She said leading me out the kitchen. I noticed Strange and Loki making out on the sofa like usual.

"Horny Bastards." I shouted walking past them. Loki put his middle finger up at me per usual and continued to make out with Stephen. They had got over themselves and actually started dating and I was happy for them and all but they we're seriously always making out.

I mean the sex must be great because Loki can literally turn himself into whatever he wants so there was definitely some kink desires that would be fulfilled. Wanda led me into a room that I seriously never knew existed.

"This is the art room!" She said and I smiled.

"Is it just you who uses this?" I asked looking around.

"Well I've brought Nat in here a couple times, Bruce is in here sometimes and so's Steve. Their both really good at drawing and painting actually. Loki's in here mostly."

"Loki? You mean the Loki that I just saw making out with Strange back there?"

"Yeah, he's in here more than me you know."

"Wow." I said and Wanda chuckled setting us an aisle up.

"I'm gonna be terrible at this." I said laughing and sitting down.

"Just go with the flow." She said passing me some paint.

We painted for a good hour till I was pretty satisfied with my work. I turned to look at Wanda's and my jaw dropped.

"That's beautiful!" I said looking at her painting. It was a flower field and was much better than what I could ever paint.

"Yours is definitely better than Nat's first attempt." She said and I laughed.

"Well thank you for occupying an hour of my time Miss Maximoff." I said and Wanda laughed.

"Your welcome Mr Wilson." She said and I smiled.

"I'll see you later okay?" I said opening the door.

"Dinners at 6!"

"Okay!" I shouted shutting the door after me. I sighed.

"I guess I need to find another way to occupy my time." I walked back into the living room.

"Are you guys still- oh." Loki was sat on the sofa with his knees pulled into his chest.

"First fight?" I asked softly sitting down next to him. He nodded slowly.

"What happened..."

"Just me being stupid." He said going to stand up.

"Tell me."

"Things were leading somewhere and I freaked out big time."

"Wait you guys haven't done that type of stuff yet?"

"No. No we haven't. I'm not a person who typically likes that sort of thing." I knew that look. It was the same one Bruce gave me on my birthday. The look of sadness, insecurity and regret, I wore that look for 2 years.

"I get it." I sighed and Loki looked at me puzzled.

"But you and Bucky-"

"Bucky's not been my only Boyfriend you know." I said chuckling.

"What was his name?" He asked.

"Louis... yours?"

"I never actually new. He caught me off guard." Loki said looking down.

"What happened?" I asked softly,

"I was walking through the palace one night which I did a lot actually when I was grabbed and pushed into a broom closet. Before I knew it, it was over... what happened with you?"

"I feel like these story's always start with 'I was drunk' but I really was that night. And it didn't help that I was 16 and underage and didn't want my parents to find out so I got him to sneak me up into my room where he took advantage of me being completely unaware of what was going on. I don't remember much of what happened but when you know, you know." I sighed and Loki nodded. "Riley was the first person I told and he was the one who made me comfortable with having sex again. You just need to find the right person to tell and to help you."

"Stephen knows and he was fine with me not being ready and made that quite clear but I practically ripped his head off about the situation. And he disappeared..."

"He probably just left to let you cool down a bit."

"Why does all the terrible shit happen to us Sam?"

"We can handle the pain, others can't." I said simply.

"I guess your right." We sat in comfortable silence for a few moments until we were interrupted by Strange bursting into the room.

"Uhhh hey Sam." He said and I laughed.

"I'll take that as my que." I said going upstairs.

"Remember what I said Loki. Find your person!" I shouted to him before disappearing inside my room.

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I watched Sam head into his room thinking about what he said. Find your person...

I got up walking towards Stephen slowly.

"What does he-" He said but I cut him off pressing my lips to his softly. It was different from the others, it was more affectionate and more loving.

"What was that for..."

"I'm ready." I said and Stephen's eyes widened.

"Are you sure I mean-" I cut him off,

"I'm ready." I took his hand leading him to my room.

"Just be gentle." I said smiling and wrapping my arms around his neck.

"Of course." He replied pressing his lips to mine as I pushed open the door dragging him in.

I was ready, there was no point being scared anymore. I had found my person.