You're an idiot // Winterfalcon

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No one moved except Loki who came and knelt beside me.

"Sam look at me." I turned my gaze to him. "Remember what you said to me earlier?"

"Yeah what about it?" I said confused.

"Well, it worked. I found my person."

"Well whoop dee doo for you Loki!"

"You don't get it do you?" He said and I shrugged, "I can't give advice like you can. I'm jealous of how good you can give advice." I thought for a moment.

"I am pretty good at giving advice..." I said softly and Loki smiled.

"See, there's always something to be jealous about but we can't let it affect us. We can't let it get in the way of the people we love."

"You're not as bad with the advice as you think." I said smiling.

"Right if we're talking about jealousy." Tony sighed, my gaze flitted to him now, "I'm jealous of how good you are at flying and how you don't need all these gadgets and technology to do your job as good as you go it." I was surprised but didn't have time to be for long as Bruce spoke up.

"I'm jealous of the relationship you have with your sister, sometimes when I'm sad about Rebecca I think about you and Sarah and how proud she is of you with whatever you do and I like to think that's how Rebecca sees me."

"I'm jealous of your attitude, I give up on things easily and you don't. Sometimes I wish I was like that." Pietro said.

"I'm jealous of how kind you are, how even when you don't want to do something you do it to make the person on the receiving end happy." Clint said.

"I'm jealous of your forgiveness. After what I've done to you, and after I've been a really crappy friend you still find it in your heart to forgive me. I never will take advantage of that again." Nat spoke up

"I'm jealous of your compassion." Strange said, "I find it hard to care about people and I'm very selfish sometimes and I wish I could understand people the way you do."

"I'm jealous of how friendly you are. I hate talking to people I don't know and get pretty nervous around them but you show me that even if your uncomfortable you should be caring and make it easy for them to talk to you. Because you never know how that persons feeling and one conversation can save their life." Wanda said.

"I'm jealous of how calm you are, sometimes its hard for me not to lash out at someone when I'm angry. Traits of my father I think, but you taught me to always hear someone out. Listen to them even if their wrong. Everyone's opinions matter." Thor chimed in.

"I'm jealous of how quickly you can get people to trust you and understand you. In my 70ish years of being Captain America I've still never been able to comfort someone and to get them to trust me as quickly you can. And I'm jealous that you got your shot with Bucky when I didn't, I made the mistake of not telling him how I really felt all those years ago and I've hated myself for it for so long but luckily I have someone else now that changed my feelings. Made me happy again." He smiled at Tony who looked shocked but definitely happy with his answer. I looked around the room smiling at everyone.

"Wait where's Bucky?" I said noticing his absence. Everyone looked around confused.

"I think he went upstairs?" I frowned going upstairs and knocking on his door.

"Buck?" I said softly, there wasn't an answer so I pushed open the door slowly. "Bucky?"

"What?" He was sitting on his bed elbows resting on his legs and head in his hands.

"What do you mean what's wrong?" He said lifting his head up. I looked at him blankly. "Do you think it's easy for me to see you like that? Do you think I like hearing you degrade yourself like your not the most important person in a lot of our lives including mine Sam?"

"Well I'm sorry but I can't help how I feel Buck surely you understand that?"

"Ever wonder how I feel?"

"Of course I do, but your not the type of person who likes to open up Buck?"

"Because I never get a chance Sam!"

"What are you on about? We've been together for nearly five months now I think that's a lot of time to speak to me about what's bothering you? How about I go get Steve I'm sure he'll understand-"

"What the fuck this has nothing to do with Steve! This is my point I'm always being made to look like the bad guy because I had a relationship before you? What about Riley huh? You have a fucking portrait of your ex boyfriend in your room! How does that make me feel? You say you feel like the second option but it seems you don't understand that the thing you feel towards Steve and me is exactly the way I feel about you and Riley! He's still your person Sam and until you let that go I'm done because this is not fair on me!"

"What about Steve he's clearly your person?"

"Steve was my person-"

"Exactly my point-"

"Oh my god you don't get it do you? He was Sam was! Steve's not my person anymore you are! But clearly that's not the case with you." Bucky had stopped shouting at this point.

"So what are you saying?" I asked softly.

"I'm saying that until you get over Riley properly I'm done. This isn't fair on me and you know that. So it's up to you to decide what you do with that information."

"Buck please..."

"No Sam. We're done." He said pushing past me. I stood there in shock a tear rolling down my cheek. Bucky's words replaying in my head.

"He's still your person Sam and until you let that go I'm done because this is not fair on me!"

"Steve's not my person you are!"

"No Sam. We're done."

Bucky just broke up with me.