The Assassin's Conquer (Book Two)

Chapter 23- Ryia

Useless and hopless. That's all I was I should just die where I am. Good for nothing but pain and death. I looked down at my hands how many lives had died to these hands? They were scared, calloused, and now thanks to my constant clawing at the walls bleeding. Niamh would be all alone now, her being all alone in the first place was my fault Simon wouldn't have attacked if he didn't think that it would pain me to hear about it.

My verry exsistance was despecable, I was a fool not to end it when I had the chance. I bet Terrin regrets talking me out of jumping off the roof of the castle now. It was when I was only thirteen after I took the life of a man I had tortured for days to get information. He wasn't even the first life I had taken. I had stood on the edge of the roof preparing myself to jump when Terrin had pulled me back.

This was the first time I didn't feel thankful for what he did. The look he gave me the last time I saw him came back to me. A look of hate and disgust. Not wanting to remember anymore I bashed my head against the floor causing my myself to pass out. Darkness took over my vision before I even had time to register the pain. When I woke what felt like seconds later Simon was sitting infront of me watching me intently.

"Why would you do all that to yourself. Pain won't do you any good you know. There's no point in it, so why bother?" Simon asked his voice filled with curiosty. Sitting up I kept my mouth shut not willing to talk to him. "You know, its rather childish just to sit there and ignore me" he said watching me for any sign of emotion. "Have you nothing left to live for now? Would hearing that bring pain to your old friends. They hate you so harshly for such little reasons have you ever thought to ask them why".

I lifted my head slowly looking straight into Simon's malicous eyes. I could feel dry blood on my forehead. Licking my dry lips I said "It doesn't matter why anymore what's done if done there is no changing that". "You finally deemed me worthy to talk to" Simon exclaimed joyously. "I see no gain in ignoring you any longer" I said feeling rather dead inside. "How far you have fallen. Does it pain you to think of them" Simon asked.

He didn't wait for an answer he just continued on. "Do you think of them often. Do you wonder if they think of you. Do you feel betrayed the way Terrin hates you and yet loves your sister. Does the thought of them being lovers pain you?". "Why does it matter anymore there is no reason to do anything. I sowed the seeds to my destruction, and now they walked away from me. Leaving me to destroy myself. I never expected them to stop me" I said pain blosoming in my chest.

"You lost everyone you love do not feel anything?" Simon asked sounding confused. I looked at him feeling dead in my soul "There id nothing left for me to feel".