Find a Light (JenLisa Adaptation)

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Friday,

January 10th, 2020

A yellow shimmer of light shone through the thin cream colored curtains Lisa knew hung in front of Jennie's window and built a light contrast to the dark blue of the sky above. Lisa's cold hands gripped the steering wheel tighter, her eyes not leaving the lit window of the house across the street and ears still taking in the humming of the engine, even though she turned it off minutes ago.

But after another long while of sitting in her car, Lisa realized that it wasn't the engine she thought she heard, but her heart, and now she could even feel it, the pulse point on her neck pulsing, beating, driving her insane. It was ridiculous how nervous she got even thinking about seeing Jennie. What would happen if she actually managed to ring the bell and climb the stairs? Would she pass out?

Lisa raised an eyebrow at the thought. Maybe that wouldn't even be so bad. At least then she wouldn't have to talk to Jennie. "Oh my God, Lisa." She said while rolling her eyes, "Get a grip on yourself." She didn't have to talk to her. On second thought, she didn't even know why she was here in the first place. Maybe she should just turn back around and... no! She was here now, it was too late to turn back and she would talk to Jennie. Even if it killed her.

With this rush of determination, Lisa swiftly opened the door and stepped into the cold night air, slammed her door shut and locked her car, before slowly making her way across the street.

But wait!

She stopped on the sidewalk in front of Jennie's house. What would she say? An annoyed breath rushed out of her mouth and formed a white cloud in front of her. What. Would. She. Say? After another couple of minutes of just standing there on the sidewalk and her mind still blank, Lisa's feet carried her to the door almost automatically.

She would figure it out. She would just... let it come to her. Yes, that's a good idea. She would do that. Her pointer finger pushed the button next to 'Jn.Kim,' which was actually easier than Lisa thought it would be, and then she waited. She waited and waited, shifting on her feet when the cold air began to creep beneath her clothes and seep into her skin.

After what felt like an eternity, the door finally buzzed and Lisa slowly pushed it open. Here it goes. She took her time on the stairs, taking longer than necessary to climb every single step, and when she finally reached the top and she knew after taking a left turn, her eyes would immediately fall on Jennie, Lisa would have loved nothing more than to turn back around and run all the way back to her car.

But she didn't do that.

Instead, she took that left turn, and just as she had expected... there she stood. Wearing her pyjamas, cozy slippers on her feet, arms crossed and eyebrows creased, she couldn't look more adorable. Lisa swallowed, before slowly approaching her. "Hey," she breathed out and stopped right in front of her, eyes locked on hers but Jennie blinked and dropped her gaze to the floor.

"Hi... I didn't expect you," she softly replied and walked inside without looking at Lisa. This really wasn't starting off the way Lisa wanted it too. But then again, she didn't really have a plan for how this would go, so who was she to complain?

Lisa walked inside, her stomach tying in knots when she closed the door behind her and Jennie turned around, like so often her lip between her teeth. God, she looked so... so sad. Was that Lisa's fault? Was she the reason that, that beautiful smile was replaced by such an uncharacteristic sad frown? She remembered that look. It was the same look Nicole had carried with her in high school. That look was the mistake Jinwoo had talked about.

"Jennie..." She took two steps forward and felt her heart break when she saw the same sadness that was etched on her face, in the depth of those brown feline eyes. "I'm so... I'm –" Sorry. You're sorry, Lisa. But it wouldn't come out. Why couldn't it come out? Instead her mouth spit out something entirely different. "Have you been avoiding me?"