Faded Memories [Book I]

Twenty

Diary #20
I'm lost and confused in doing what is right and staying by your side.

Pareho kaming tahimik na nakaupo ni Yannah sa may sofa. I don't even know what to say. I don't know how to explain everything like how this shit started. "Sabrene?" she seriously asked as she break our silence.

Fuck, yeah! I am the fucking Sabrene Ferrer. I am pretending as Sabrene, her girlfriend.

"Yannah." mahinang pagtawag ko at humarap sakanya ng bigla itong tumayo, gulong gulo at parang hindi niya alam kung anong sasabihin niya.

"Shit, Erin! What the fuck are you doing? What on fucking earth are you doing? Do you even who she is? She's fucking Skylar Hans Thompson. The heir of T-Tech Company. And what? Girlfriend huh?" hindi makapaniwalang sabi niya sa akin.

Believe me, Yan. I really don't know what I am doing right now.

"I don't know the whole story but you're lying to her. My goodness! I can't believe you fooled that badass genius. Shit. Erin, Wag si Hans. She loathes liar as much as you hate people who lies— and now you're doing it." pagpapamukha niya sa akin. Hindi ko rin alam!!

I don't like cheaters, I don't like deceiving someone and most especially I hate people who are liar.

Pero anong ginagawa ko ngayon? Nagawa ko lahat yon? Nagawa ko ang mga bagay na sukang suka akong ginawa ng Papa namin noon sa amin.

Darn it. I really can't believe I am doing this shit. I must be really insane.

"She's not a good person— she doesn't even associate her self to the people where she can't benefit something. She will always make sure she's gonna get something from you at pinipili niya ang mga kinakasama niya. She's evil in terms of business world that's why she was chosen as heir of T-Tech." tuloy tuloy niyang sinabi sa akin. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang kaba niya habang pinagsasabihan ako.

Pero mukhang hindi naman ganon si Hans. She seems like a good person to me? Or maybe because she doesn't wanna show her bad side to Sabrene? Nabasa ko ang diary niya noon pero parang mabait naman siya?

"Itigil mo na to, Erin. I am telling you... this is for your sake and safety. She doesn't know how to forgive people who deceive or betrayed her. I don't know what's your plan or why are you doing this but please stop now. You're my friend, Erin. Masyadong mataas si Hans para kausapin ko siya sa bagay na ganito. I can't save you from her if you'll keep your relationship in a deeper level." saka siya lumapit sa akin para makita niya ako ng mabuti.

Parang natakot ako bigla sa sinabi niya. Ganon ba talaga siya? She's her cousin so she really knows her very well, right? Mas kilala niya si Hans kaysa sa akin.

"I... I have a contract with Ma'am Vien." sagot ko sakanya na ikinagulat niya. "A what? W-what?" naguguluhang tanong niya sa akin saka ko kinuwento sakanya ang buong nangyari magmula nung una kaming nagkita ni Hans.

Shocked was all over her face. Huminga pa siya ng malalim para pakalmahin ang sarili saka siya nag isip ng matagal kung anong sasabihin niya sa akin.

"Right. She can't be a heir if she has an illness. If the boards will know about her vision and other side effects of her accident, they'll forcedly evict her as the CEO that's why Tita Vien is doing everything to make her condition normal and healthy." wala sa sariling sabi niya sa akin.

I thought she was doing this for her daughter? So she was doing it for the sake of their company?

"Hanggang kailan matatapos ang contract niyo?" seryosong tanong niya sa akin pero napatingin lang ako sakanya. "Hanggang... okay na siya?" hindi siguradong sagot ko at napasapo naman ito sa kanyang noo.