Do It For The District || Stray kids || Hunger Games

XVIII

"Sorry about that" Jisung smiled at me, it was small "I'm not going insane, I promise, but, you know, acting like it at least makes people think I like doing it so I'm not seen as weak, or an easy target" he looks up at the sky "I tell ya, there's not a lot of people left" he continued, taking a long, deep breath

"Not a lot at all, there's Jongho, Mark, You, Seungmin and I" I answer, coming next to Jisung

"I'm sorry I couldn't help Jeongin" he muttered

I look down "it's not your fault" I say quietly "at least we got revenge" I sigh

"Yeah, well, revenge isn't always a good thing" Jisung says in response to my conclusion

"No, I know, but sometimes it is" I had mixed feelings about the 'revenge' on Bambam, I wasn't sure he deserved death but we would be next on the kill list hadn't it been for Jisung's outstandingly good aim

"Maybe we should dawdle back to the lake" Jisung speaks up "that was the 'meeting spot' you lot agreed on, correct?"

I nod slowly "let's go, I'm sure Seungmin would've ran there"

"Yeah" Jisung nodded and turned around, we started walking together, back to the lake

We talked about Minho and Jeongin, we were both torn apart by their deaths, just the look in Jisung's eyes was enough to show how exhausted he was, how distraught he was, how grief stricken he was.

Sure enough, Seungmin was sat by the edge of the lake, hugging his knees to his chest and crying into them.

I put a hand on his back "it's just me, Hyunjin" I reassure so I didn't get a negative reaction from him.

Seungmin perked up at my voice, turned around, and hugged me so tight, crying into my chest.

Jisung walked by us and sat cross-legged at the edge of the lake.

"I hate this so much" Seungmin sobbed "I despise these games so much I didn't want Jeongin to die, this feels too real, I don't want to see anyone else die"

I rubbed his back "I hate it too Seungminnie, and I know Jeongin's death was rough, it's so real that we need to face this to try with this for our families, this is so shit I know, I wish we were happier" I whisper

"I'm gonna die, I know it I don't want to die, I'm so scared" he continued

"If you die, I promise I'll be right behind you, or before you, I'm not leaving you behind okay? I'll never leave you behind" I reassure

Seungmin nodded and continued to cry for a bit on my shoulder before he calmed down "can I kiss you again?" I heard him say, barely whispering.

A small smile spread across my face "of course" I whisper back "if that comforts you most" I continue, I genuinely loved him, but I knew it wouldn't be the right time to go all out, just a small kiss would comfort him and that's enough for me

Seungmin kissed me softly and I kissed back, it was a euphoric feeling, and I never wanted anything more than this feeling right now, it felt... Right and that's what mattered.

Seungmin slowly pulled away and smiled softly he slowly went to a tree to lean on and he closed his eyes.

I sigh in content, looking over at the reflections on the lake.

I noticed a few tears running down Jisung's cheeks but I knew he wasn't a person who liked a lot of attention, sure he wouldn't mind Minho comforting, but a person he pretty much vowed to kill, probably not.

It stayed quiet between the three of us, Seungmin had fallen asleep, Jisung stayed put and I started a fire to keep us warm, the only threats in these games were Jongho and Mark and if they got this far, I know they're good.
Once I was done, I sat next to Jisung and started a small conversation with him, it was about Hwanwoong and Dongju aswell as his trainer, Youngjo, I knew Dongju had been in the games and Jisung told me Youngjo was in the same game as Hwanwoong and Dongju, so I was intrigued

"There's a way of all three of us surviving?" I ask hopefully

Jisung sighed, turning his head back out to the lake "not anymore, you can thank those three for that, but to be honest, can you blame them? They're all heart broken though, they lost three friends in these damn games" he spoke, his voice was so soft, he didn't sound intimidating anymore, just, extremely understand

"Do you know who they were?" I ask, tilting my head

"Of 'course" he answered "Keonhee, Seoho and Geonhak were their names, they were all close, very close, so they have an understandable grudge against these games" Jisung hummed

I nod to show I was listening, we continued talking until the sunset by the lake, we watched it set quietly, peacefully, watching all the reflections of the leaves blowing in the gentle breeze.

Jisung promised to keep a look out so I went next to Seungmin, seeing he was awake

"Hey, uhm Hyunjin?" He asks softly

I raise my eyebrow slightly and look at Seungmin "what's up?"

"It's really cold, and I really want some comfort" he paused "I don't want to sound needy, but can we please cuddle?" His voice progressively got quieter "the best we can" he added "I know it's hard here"

"I've got some sleeping bags stuffed in the bag I dumped by the tree" Jisung called, overhearing Seungmin and I talk

I walk over and pull some out "thanks Ji" I say, unintentionally using a nickname, which Jisung didn't seem to mind.

I lay them out and me and Seungmin got comfortable and I wrapped my arms around him, he did the same to me.

It felt so warm, it was relaxing cuddling with Seungmin in the mild breeze, I had briefly forgotten about the wolves, but they seemed to be on the other side of the arena now, if around at all. I didn't budge though.

I felt safe.