Identifying Our Trope (Metanoia Series #1)

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Chapter 20

Seryoso ang mukha kong nagpaalam kanila mama na aalis na kami. Naiinis ako, alam naman niya na may boyfriend ako tapos parang gusto pa niya na i-entertain ko yung lalaki. Just what the hell, right?

Nakalimutan ba niya na kasama ko si Lucas? She made him feel like he wasn't there. Fuck.

Naglalakad lang kami Lucas sa parking lot papunta sa kotse niya. He was silent. We weren't even holding our hands. Hindi ko alam kung galit ba siya o ano, hindi ko rin naman alam kung paano ko siya i-aapproach.

Sa kotse na lang.

Tama, sa kotse ko na lang siya kakausapin.

Nang malapit na kami sa kotse niya ay binuksan na niya ito at pumunta sa shotgun seat na side para pagbuksan ako ng pinto.

"Sorry," I whispered when we're both in the car. "Sorry about what she did, I didn't know..." I'm literally out of words.

Hindi ko alam, kasalanan ko ba? May mali ba 'ko? Hindi ako makapag sorry sa kanya ng maayos dahil hindi ko naman kung saang parte ba ako dapat mag sorry. Naguguluhan ako.

Sa tingin ko wala naman akong nagawang mali pero ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. Sobrang tahimik namin. Ni hindi man lang nga siya nagsalita sa sinabi ko at nagdrive lang paalis dito. Siya na bahala kung saan kami pupunta, pero baka hindi kami tumuloy dahil nga sa mood naming dalawa.

"It wasn't your fault that your mother doesn't like me for you." he said after the long silence.

Hindi siya tumitingin sa akin, para bang iniiwasan niya na magkatinginan kaming dalawa.

"She doesn't?" tanong ko pabalik.

Naguguluhan pa rin ako dahil nung mga una ay parang okay naman kay mama yon pero bakit iba na ngayon? Hindi ko alam. Manhid ba 'ko? Bakit hindi ko nalalaman?

"She clearly doesn't, Nat. Almost 2 years, but— nevermind." sabi niya na hindi man lang talaga ako tinignan.

Hindi ko masyadong na process ang sinabi niya dahil iniisip ko pa ring ang nangyari kanina. Ano ba talaga? My mother is confusing me. A while ago, she acted like she wanted Lucas to leave. Why would she do that to my boyfriend?

She didn't act strange towards my sister's boyfriend?

"I don't get all these..." I mumbled, looking down. I was fidgeting with my hands because I'm nervous. I don't even know why I am nervous. "I felt like everything changed. What happened?" I voiced out my thoughts.

"You're from a rich family," he said out of nowhere.

Confusion filled me just because of that statement of his. "How is that connected to what we are talking about now?" I questioned. I'm desperate for an answer.