Behind The Pain (COMPLETED)

Kabanata 32

BTP KABANATA 32

"I'll go ahead. I have patients waiting for me," I said, turning back.

Hindi ko na hinintay na magsalita ang manager ko. I left with a heavy and guilty heart. Denying the issue wasn't my choice... Kung pwede na ako ang magdesisyon, hindi ako magsisingunaling.

Denying the issues also means neglecting the fact that we have had a very intimate relationship before. And I didn't want to disregard those... Our memories still lie beneath my soul. It left a scar that I didn't want to heal.

I saw Satan when I was about to enter the elevator. Our eyes met.

"I'm sorry..." It was the first thing I said.

Lumabas siya sa loob ng elevator at lumapit sa akin. He sadly smiled. "For a moment, I thought we'd have a chance. But maybe, you're right... We're not for each other."

"I didn't want to deny our past," bulong ko. I lowered my head and turned my hands into a fist.

"I know," Satan said. "I know you didn't, but, Vera... Please don't ever cross paths with me again..." Puno ng pagsusumamo ang boses niya. "I don't want any heartbreak... Buong buhay ko pakiramdam ko tinatapon lang ako ng mga taong nasa paligid ko kapag hindi na nila ako kailangan. I love you, but I love myself, too."

Walang lumabas na salita mula sa bibig ko... Ni hindi ko nga alam ang sasabihin. Ginusto ko 'to, kaya kailangan kong panindigan 'to.

"Okay," my voice cracked, so I cleared my throat. "I'm sorry again, Satan."

Naiwan akong mag-isa nang maglakad siya papaalis. I lifted my head to look at him. He was walking without hesitation. Hindi siya lumingon... tuloy-tuloy lang siya sa paglalakad hanggang sa makita niya si Celine.

With a heavy heart, I sighed. I looked at them one more time before pushing myself to walk and go away.

Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko sa bag at kaagad na binuksan ang gc naming magkakaibigan.

verainemaureen: Are you guys free? Let's meet at Chanel's cafe.

I hurriedly drove to Chanel's cafe. The whole ride I was zoning out. Malaking himala na hindi ako nabangga. Bumabawi siguro si Lord sa akin. He didn't give me any physical pain, but the amount of pain emotionally is beyond compare.

Pagkarating ko sa cafe ni Chanel, naabutan ko silang nakaupo sa usual place namin. They were talking to each other with worried expressions, but when they saw me coming, they all smiled. Somehow, their smiles lessen the heaviness of my heart. 

"Hi," my voice almost broke.

Kaagad na lumapit sa akin ni Kev at niyakap ako. The other girls also stood from their seat to hug me. 

"Why are you crying?" agad na tanong ni Viya nang mapansin niya na may tumulong luha mula sa mga mata ko. She cupped my face, making me sob even more.

"I'm just so stressed..." 

"Drink this," Chanel said, giving me the water she was holding. "Kung gusto mo ng iced coffee, sabihin mo lang. Libre lahat ngayong araw," she added.

I thanked her and sat beside Mina. She looked really worried, so I tried to smile at her.

"What happened?" Zari asked.

I sighed and told them what happened from the part where my new manager talked to me up until when I saw Celine smiling at Satan. 

My friends were very attentive, and no one tried to cut me off. I appreciate them for that... because I prefer having someone who could listen than receiving tons of words that would just overwhelm me.