UNLOVING YOU [completed]

ULY #14

Space

Wala akong pasabing umalis at tumakbo papalabas ng bahay. I didn't look back and just crossed the road to ride a taxi. Halos huminto ang puso ko ng may malakas na busina akong narinig. Lumingon ako at nakita ang isang puti na sasakyan na patungo sa direksyon. I suddenly remembered the accident back then. Hindi ako nakagalaw at napatitig lang sa papalapit na sasakyan.

Someone pushed me at the side of the road.

“What are you doing?!” Rhysand asked angrily.

Wala sa sarili akong napatingin sakaniya.

“I—” I blinked many times.

“Balak mo bang magpakamatay ha?!”

Galit akong tumingala ako sakaniya habang may tumutulong mga luha galing sa mga mata ko. I tightened my jaw.

“So what if I say yes? May magagawa ka? Suicide is nothing compared to what you all have done to me!” madiin kong sigaw sa mukha niya.

“I won't let you! Babantayan kita minu-minuto at araw-araw just to save you from committing.” he said.

“You can't save me!” I laughed. “Kahit magpakamatay pa ako sa harap mo ngayon, you can't stop me from doing it.”

“Then tell me how can I stop you?” mariin niyang hinawakan ang mga balikat ko.

I sighed and smiled. Binigyan ko siya ng ngiti at yumuko. Tumingala ulit ako at itinulak siya nang kaunti.

“You. Out. of. my. life.” sabi ko at tinalikuran siya.

“I can't do that!” he yelled as if he can't live without me.

“But you can lie?” I asked sarcastically.

Natutop siya at napatigil sa sinabi ko. Tinalikuran ko siya at dahan-dahang naglakad papalayo. I just continued walking while he's shouting and telling me something I don't give a fuck about.

“I'm sorry, darling! Let me explain! I love you!” he shouted.

Tumigil ako at binuksan ang pinto ng taxi. I slumped inside and close the door. Nakita ko kung paano siya tumakbo at hinahabol ang taxi na sinasakyan ko. But he's slow.

Matamlay akong ngumiti. Sorry? They think   I will forgive them by saying that one word. They think one word will let me go running back to them. Sorry is not enough. And explain? They already explained everything earlier. I don't need any excuses. That was already enough.

I need space.

Matamlay at bagsak ang balikat kong kumatok sa pinto ni Mia, hinihintay siyang pagbuksan ako. I heard her shouting, asking who it was and telling me to wait. Hindi ako sumagot at nanatiling nakayuko habang hinihintay siya.

“Sino y—” she stopped and looked at me. “Fio? What happened? Why... Why do you look like a mess?” she asked.

A tear escape from my eyes and I sobbed infront of her. She gasped and pulled me for a hug. Pinapatahan niya ako at pinapasok sa condo niya.

She walks towards me and handed me a glass of water. Kinuha ko iyon at ininom.

“So you are saying that the little girl you brought here before was your own daughter? Ang anak mo na inakala mong patay na?” she asked.