I remained motionless while I caught myself holding my lips. Then I open my eyes immediately and feel a knock for a loop in a moment when I realize that I am now in the waiting shed—AGAIN.
I'm appalled knowing that in an instant, I am now in front of the busy streets while people are squeezing at my back just to find a cover.
Napatingin at napalingon ako ng mabilis sa paligid.
It is an unpleasant surprise that I am back in my realm. Or I might say... in my reality...was it just a daydream? Or did I just experience chronic brain disorder called Schizophrenia?
Holy dinosaur!!! Kailangan ko na ata mag pa check up sa Psychiatrist! I told so to myself.
His world... his touch... his kiss... it felt so surreal.
No it can't be.
"Lumos Incendio...who are you?"
"I'm gonna find you! I'm gonna find you! Wherever you are!"
...
Weeks passes by quickly I try to bowl myself from the overload work I have with me above the table. I can't believe I have schizophrenia! I just had a diagnosis three days ago and my Psychiatrist evaluate my symptoms through tests and is now evaluating me for a psychotherapy treatment.
My doctor says that I'm in the state of denial. All symptoms include distorted thoughts, hallucinations, delusions and feelings of fright and paranoia are present so, for someone with me having schizophrenia, my world is a jumble of confusing thoughts, images, and sounds.
Hindi rin alam ni Solana, Lolo Flynn at ni Lola Flora that I suffered from that diagnosis.
I can't believe either!
I try myself to live a normal life as possible but sometimes, it's kinda suffocating so, I decided that I will open it up to Solana, maybe later, tomorrow or sooner. Just gotta find time.
"Solana, g ako later sa lakad niyo. Sige payag ako mag soju tayo at samgyup!" I told her, maybe I'm ready to tell her later.
I just saw her having her wide smile!
"OMG!!! I'm so excited!!! At last!!! Napapayag na rin kita!!!" She ecstatically uttered. Kitang kita sa mukha niya ang excitement na pinipigilan niya para hindi kami makaistorbo sa ibang ka- officemate namin na nagtatrabaho.
"Ako ng bahala! My treat!" She whispered.
"Okay, sabi mo eh! Ako na bahala sa soju!" I replied.
Kinuha ko naman ang phone ko sa bag and upon checking it, its battery empty. Nabasa kase ito last week ng sumugod ako sa ulan kaya naman halos mag iisang bwan ko na ata ito hindi magamit. Buti nalang at pinahiram ako ni Lola Flora ng kanya kaya naman may nagagamit ako sa trabaho. Ginawan naman ng paraan ni Lola Flora para maayos raw ito kaya ibinaon niya ito sa kaban ng bigas para raw mag evaporate ang tubig.
I think it's time for me to open it. So I charged my phone and luckily! Nabuksan ko ito.
Ilang beses ko na kase inattempt na buksan ito kaso nga lang ayaw talaga, papa check up ko na sana ito sa paayusan kaya lang nanghihinayang ako sa pera, paano ba naman kase kung makapag taga sa labor, pwede ko ng pambili ng bagong cellphone eh! Sadya lang talagang napaka valuable ng cellphone kong ito kaya ayokong i-let go.
"Ohhhh geeez!!! Thank God!!!" I screamed, napa peace sign naman ako sa mga kapwa ko ka-empleyado ng naistorbo ko ata sila sa pag sigaw ko.
I waited for almost eternity and finally its working! I don't know why some memory just ignited in me.
BINABASA MO ANG
Guardians of Azthralz
FantasyThere is balance among all things in the Universe. There is a shadow and light, right and wrong, integrity and wickedness, good and evil, and when that balance is broken, there come the architects of the Universe to restore the balance of all planes...
