IKALAWANG YUGTO
(1 year has passed)
...
There I was. Sitting in front of a blank paper. My hands on my thighs and my mind quiet wondering in some far thoughts.
Where should I start?
I closed my eyes and remember him... His face....his nose...his hair...his lips... Every details of him... I recalled. It was all vivid to me.
So I started to draw him... I started to curve the shape of his face, his eyes, and his lips... I used my pallet knives, brushes and scratching objects also.
Drawing a lifelike portrait is not complicated for me.
It took me hours to finnish.
I can't take my eyes off him. His eyes scrunched up with emotions... It's seems his talking to me right now... it's as if his appealing to something... But he can't... Because he was jailed up to my art... Only in my imagination.
What change in this reality?
Just one thing, he does not exist.
All that happened that I thought happened when I'm with him, didn't really happened.
In my dream, a lot of things happened which I thought so surreal... Sa katunayan, pakiramdam ko ilang taong nakalipas akong namalagi sa panaginip kong iyon. I felt I stayed there for too long... But in my reality, it wasn't that long because it was only hours after I wake up.
I stayed too long inside my head, not in my reality.
My life right now seems back to normal. No magic, no fantasy, not a mystery.
It's like a restart. Another day one. But the difference is? I have him in my head. He live with me. He exist not just in my memory, not just in my imagination, but in my heart.
He is here.
And it hurts because all this time, I'm loving a fictional character that I created myself.
Isn't it ironic that there are eight planets in the solar system, and currently there are eight billion people.. one hundred ninety five countries and I fell in love with a fictional character.
Lucky me.
"Asghero Hellkah Dhrazan... But it's a shame you don't exist. Not in my reality."
"I miss you so much.. so much that it hurts."
Hindi ko na kaya pang titigan ang larawang iginuhit ko na halos mapuno na ito ng napatakang luha. Kaya naman agad ko itong itinupi at inipit na lamang sa libro.
Isang taong nakalipas simula ng magising ako sa katotohanan. Maraming nangyari, maraming nagbago...
Sa katunayan, isang taon na rin akong hindi nag tatrabaho sa GGG Broadcasting ngayon. Mas tumutok akong bantayan si Lola Flora at Lolo Flynn at nag focus na lang sa maliit na business namin na flower shop.
Sa loob ng isang taon, napalago ko ito at kaka open lang ng isang flower shop business namin sa kalapit na mall. Hindi naman ganoon kalaki ang kita, sakto lang. Yung kaya lang matustusan ang pang araw araw namin. Swerte pa rin kami dahil meron kaming ganitong business na kahit papaano ay masasabi kong kumportable ang pamumuhay namin.
Isinubsob ko ang sarili ko sa sa flower shop business namin upang wala akong panahong maisip siya.
A lot has changed.
BINABASA MO ANG
Guardians of Azthralz
FantasiThere is balance among all things in the Universe. There is a shadow and light, right and wrong, integrity and wickedness, good and evil, and when that balance is broken, there come the architects of the Universe to restore the balance of all planes...
