Just a waitress (a jace Norman fanfic)

Sorry about this

^^that's Ella. I know. She's an amazing singer. You'll understand if you read.
Hey guys. Sorry I haven't been updating very well, or very often. I just can't keep a clear head! I'm probably about to go off talking about my girl problems so if you don't care then you can stop reading. I just am so upset! I don't know if it's jealousy or anger or sadness, but I'm just sick of living in someone's shadow. I love music so much. It's my whole life and I spend so much time working on it, but for all the work I do and performances I do I never get any recognition! It's all because of this girl in my class. Everyone thinks she's such a talented singer and she is but she's all everyone sees. If she's there I don't even exist! No matter where I go I can't get away from her. She always shows up and steals the show and I turn invisible again. Literally one time we both were in a performance one night and I was so proud of one of my performance on the harp. We were both standing next to each other after and a woman come up and starts congratulating her and completely ignored me. I play music, I wrote music, I sing, but of course nine of the things are as good as Ella. She gets all the solos and even my own parents always talk about how she's going to be a big star. I'm just sick of everyone giving her special treatment! She's nice and all but she doesn't even appreciate how lucky she is to have everyone pay attention to her. And of course right as I was starting to get over it we all had to write a piece of music and re best ones would get performed by professionals. I worked so hard in my piece! I spent hours trying to make it perfect but of course it wasn't as good as Ella's and of course her piece for chosen not mine. Right now I could seriously use a miracle. Fairytales suck for making me think that I might actually have a chance at a happy ending. For making me believe that dreams come true. Because for all my work I just end up back at square one. I'm considering giving up music. What's the point? I'm never as good as her and I never will be. It will always be about her. It's been lien that ever since we were kids and I'm just tired. Tired of always having to fight for everything and always getting beaten by her. Part f me wishes she had just stayed in California. Sure she probably would have gotten discovered and be a child star now, but at least there would be no personal connection. I wouldn't be so over looked in my little corner of the world. The worst part is I hate misled for thinking all this. She's an okay person and I hate misled for being jealous! I guess she just has me beat in every way. Anyways sorry for wasting your time with my stupid problems. I just had to get that out. I promise I will update soon. And please comment if you have advice or the same thing happens to you. Anyways sorry about this. Love y'all. 😔💜